Sunday, November 01, 2009
sometimes i just wish that they can be more understanding. but they failed to do so time and again...they make me feel so xinku. everyday i have to face 2 person's face, temper and stuff. im really really very tired. when im outside, i've to tolerate my bf's temper, his sort of split personality and stuff. at home i have to face my mum's temper, her nonsense and stuff...and now im bared from going to malaysia with my bf....and tell me what have i done!
21 years old, got my own thinking, got my own wants, and they just dun understand.
do you know why i always give my best in a relationship? because at the end of the day even when im no longer with the guy, i know i did the best and they are the one who dunno how to appreciate me. i have no regrets and i want no regrets in my life.
even though this current bf treats me in an unexpected way, i nv once said anything to them. nv once stop myself from treating the best...because when he's hurt, im hurt, when he's unhappy, im unhappy. how much do they understand me. sometimes i do wish my bf can understand me, can give in to me more. but i know it's impossible. and so i put in high hopes for my parents. afterall they look after me since im a baby, i thought even if no one, no friends understand, THEY WILL. but what i got was nth but lots and lots of misunderstanding and accusation...
it's just so hard isnt it....
11:00 PM
