Wednesday, October 22, 2008
felt so stressed! abt money issue and school stuff...
i dunno how long i can hold on...because the money my parents gave me are insufficient. my tuition agent collected half of the pay for the first month. im paying textbook myself. i paid for my dad's phone and he still haven return me the money (he probably forgot abt it totally). the transport expenses increase like fuck. im like spending 100 over dollars for transport per month. im spending my own savings to save myself from hunger.
im thinking if i should con't with school. my dad did gave me an option. 1st is to study hard. 2nd is to quit sch if i think i cannot pass my exams. sudden urge to quit sch and look for a job. i feel like in singapore, it's not only qualifications that matters...without $ what can u do? it's not like my parents cnt afford to give me more money. because they have enough stress with their work. my dad's company is going to retrench ppl. what more can i ask for? for more money? this is ridiculous.
i've never been letting money issues get into my ways. but right now with such a fucking high living expenses in s'pore...i cant do much but to worry. worry abt my own future. and so i dun think i'll be surrendering my malaysia ic and passport when i reached 21 years old because i think i want to follow my boyfriend to malaysia to survive. singapore is really not a place for me. damn it.
i hope i could get my pay asap. but till the end of this month, it's only the 6th lesson. 2 more lesson b4 i can get that fucking cheapskate pay. darn!
i wish my boyfriend would give me some support and not flare up with me when i tutor...and when i skip meals.
should be eating grass...haha.
11:06 PM
