Sunday, June 29, 2008
not on a very happy mood. partly is because my internet is down since tuesday. i cant go online, i cant blog my unhappiness.
being together with him, he did bring me a lot of surprises, showered me with a lot of care and concern tt none of my ex boyfriend did so. i thank him. i love him.
but being a hairdresser, it's not easy for them not to communicate with customer. sometimes i felt jealous tt he's chatting with them etc. i know i cant do tt. i hate myself for being so jealous. im now left with 2 more weeks. to choose him(A), or choose him(B)?
everytime whenever i leave the salon, he'll be very angry very sad. i understand how much he wish i was there but the prob is, i cant. i still have a boyfriend who bothers abt my whereabouts. i took so much risk to lie to my bf and tell him i need to get home early so i can meet him.
we cried together, we hug each other, we kiss each other. but deep down im guilty of these act. i want to make a decision between these 2 guys but i really dunno who i should chose. u cant spent quality time with me. in the end, im still the one picking guys up after their work. who ever pick me up?
im not happy. really not happy. is this the life i should lead? having to give up all my time for the sake of guys?
but the big difference of B is, he's very caring. whenever im at the salon, there'll be pocky, hello panda, potato chips, strepsils, herbal tea. when my skin gets itchy, he bought me anti-itch cream and apply is for me without complains. i appreciate. a plus point for him.
but but but...compared to a 3 yrs relationship.
haix.
10:06 PM
