Monday, March 10, 2008
ok, im back.
staying over at his place. and then the second night, we quarrel. but it was only a minor thing. so i didnt brood over it much.
sometimes i just dunno how to trust him. he clearly knows that i hate ppl lying to me, yet, he still prefers to lie to me and until i found out the truth, he got no choice but to admit. it's all because of his neighbour's maid that make us quarrel over and over again.
i dunno maid is hired to do housework or to come to singapore to find a guy to settle down. everytime when we walk past, i can see the maid smiling happily to my boyfriend. her eyes followed him wherever he walks. he always pass by their house. he claim he doesnt smile or look at the maid, but who knows. i always walk in front, and he'll walk behind me.
i've tried many ways to trust him, but no way. i cant do that anymore. pretending that nth happen between the two of them? i cant seriously.
friday night, we went out for dinner at secret receipe. it's kinda hard for us to find a day to sit down without much worries, to have dinner together.
saturday i washed his forever dirty toilets for him while he is at work and after that get prepared to meet pearly to go SIM. after tt met up with shervonne at boon lay and go pioneer mall. dinner was at delifrance.
sunday morning, still unsatisfied with the cleaning of the toilet, so i clean up the dirty place again and then took a bath. was still thinking of walking to pioneer mall to get papers and breakfast. but then ying xing called me to go down for work because collen's alone. so work for 3 hours and come back again. dine at balithai.
there's nth much to talk abt because i dun wan to talk abt this tiring relationship. dunno to give up or not. but seriously speaking, im too tired to handle.
many instances whereby i wanted to give up, but because i cant bear to, i stayed, put up with his nonsence and stuff.
i know ppl will start saying: 'not happy just break lo, it's not like u are married to him already or what. it's whether u want to break anot'
haha. but i'll say u're stupid. relationship is not sth whereby u want to break means break. how much i've put into this relationship can never be measured. because i still need him, because i still love him,tt's why i dun wan to put this relationship to an end.
i've stop grumbling to my friends abt how bad he is because i find tt it's pointless. how long can they listen.
may be meeting shevronne and cindy any day this week. i love gossiping with them, i love their presence, i love the way they joke. i love the way they give me solutions to probs and i just simply love the way they are. we can joke till scold each other but is only play play only la. haha.
shall continue chatting with sean and go for lunch. bb.
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