Saturday, February 16, 2008
i seriously hate staying at home, doing nth besides computer computer and computer. not only does it increase the utility bill, but i also have no income. and so i asked my mum to buy straits time. -> classified.
most of the job needs experience. some are for fresh graduates but not very appealing. what i hate abt is, if every job needs experience of 1-3 yrs etc, then fresh graduates will remain jobless. haix.
they says ignorance is a bliss. i agree with it. sometimes i wish i didnt hear, i wish i didnt know anything. yet time and again, god gave me the chance to chance upon such incident. so much so that i hate it, and i refuse to accept colleague is jus colleague.
and this is what i told him in a fit of anger: 'whatever u can do to me behind my back, i can do it to you too. it's whether i want a not'
so i was very unhappy throughout the whole night. but then i have to pretend nth happens. fake right.
and now he's complaining tt the gold necklace have very sharp edges and so he wants to change it next month. and im so fucking angry with him because initially when i commented tt the necklace will cut his neck, he dun believe me. and now after a few days, he wanted to change it. so my gift for him can be change as and when he like. he dun even have respect for me. and then should i request to dispose the necklace he bought for me previously??? im not working. every dollars and cents in my bank is from my previous job which was like 3 yrs ago. i save here and there for ur birthday present and now, say change means change. u never think how tt 250 means to me.
upset.
dumb.
i really hate it when i have the heart to buy the present but they refuse to accept it. take for example my dad. i bought him a wallet for ard 70+ dollars. end up, he refuse to use it and even offered to my bro when he loses his.
it's all plain useless. pissed me off.
i think next time i should save up myself and pamper myself with branded stuff instead of buying branded stuff for ppl who wun appreciate.
argh!
i hate this feeling. it sucks.
12:20 AM
