Thursday, January 24, 2008
it feel so scary....these few days study abit and then get distracted. going to pasar malam frequently to buy food to eat n eat. ramly after dinner directly. otah and crispy pancake at 9pm. so pals, dun get surprise if u see me getting fatter and fatter.
1 more day will be MACC exam. feel so scared. because i didnt use 100% heart to study. here and there also dun understand. haha.
i hate staying at home. it let my mind wander off. thinking of those impossible stuff. maybe impossible to me, but not to him ar. hahaha. seriously if tt's what he wants, there's nothing i can do. a leopard cannot change its spot. lying n lying. im so tired. but seems like i cant talk to anyone.
has my love for him faded? this is sth i have to ask myself. with or without has got no difference. it's more of a chores. i hates everything abt him, he hates everything i do. i dunno why we are still together. screaming and shouting at each other seems like a habit. ignoring each other seems like an everyday event. lying seems like tongue-twister. hahaha.
love. this is love.
HAHAHAHAHA!!!
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