Thursday, October 04, 2007
why does i seems to bother abt him so much. he's move on with life and flirting ard with other girls and im here thinking and thinking of him. what the FUCK am i doing? why cant i just wake up and take it as if that 6 months was nth. 6 mths compared with my r/s with a for 2 yrs plus. what am i doing???
why did i read his testimonial when i know it hurts??? him dancing with other girls, him flirting ard and him being with other girls. i shouldnt care anymore. but why cant i just throw him out of my mind.
i dunno why. i dun even know why im crying over him right now. we've no relationship together. we arent together. he's not my fling least my bf. he's NO ONE. why am i so affected by shilin's testimonial?
i shouldnt even bother abt reading. i feel like im on the dead end.
or maybe it was love at first sight that makes me so hard to forget him totally or maybe he's the one that is able to shower me with enough love and care.
she's attached, he's getting married next year. if he can do that to his gf, so he can do it all along. he's not a sagitaurus but he's as flirt as a sagitaurian.
fuck, what am i talking. not all sagitaurians are flirt.
i will strike him off my mind. i can and i will. pls god...let me forget him.
just let me do that once and for all. i swear i'll nv fling...please.
if only i can....
this will be a torturous life for me....
11:54 PM
