Saturday, October 13, 2007
sometimes i just wish to say: it's between the two of us. even though u r my mother, please respect my decision. i know what i am doing. and since then, ive woken from this incident that whatever thing that happen between us, i'll not tell you anymore. i rather suffer alone rather than things being spread through ur mouth. u added unnecessary things, use very ugly words.
didnt join my parents for breakfast in the morning even though my dad keeps waiting for me. until i flare up and tell them that they dun have to wait for me. but i secretly told my brother im meeting bf for breakfast and ask him to SHHH abt this. hahaha.
i feel so uneasy in this hse.
take for example during the days that i broke up with my bf, i dread waking up in the morning. even when i know i cnt sleep, i'll rather stay in bed. reason being im afraid they might question me this and that. i dun wan all these. because im someone who will keep things to myself until i really cnt take it, den i talk to someone.
i know many may disagree on us patching up, but i really dun wan to spend another few weeks of insomia and lose of appetite. although lose appetite can lose weight but i rather be happy than sad. because during those days, my smile were so fake until i cant even take it.
i hope he'll really keep his promise.
may not be joining dad for breakfast tml too. he may be thinking tt im trying to avoid my mum. but seriously im avoiding 2 things.
went for buffet lunch at his cousin place. had kfc for our brunch. and then dinner at his place plus ice-cream. wah...so full. haha.
i guess i'll end here. bb.
10:25 PM
