Tuesday, October 09, 2007
i was very very sad. told my mum abt the broke up. and surprisingly, she encourage me to break with him. no guys can be trusted.
cried almost the whole day. even in front of jasmine ang. and i must really thank her. thank her for her concern. seriously, no teacher have ever shown such concern.
this time my heart really broke. broke into million zillion of pieces. no matter what he says, i dun believe le. my heart is broken. that's what i know now. i've tried many ways to act strong, but im still emo.
i ought to be harsh.
i called up ching n junliang last night. it's very late le. many have already fallen asleep. i told them abt the issue.
the most embarrassing thing is...i cried very very badly on the phone with junliang.
this morning, i thought everything was okay liao. but then i saw the photo again. and their lies was revealed by me again. i cried n i cried. imagine crying in sch. a place where so many ppl will see u. haa. it's very paiseh.
dun feel like going home so soon, so kelly acc me to marina square to find ching n pam. happy thing is, i saw tay ping hui, felicia chin n joanne peh. the moment i saw them, i started smiling. very very happy. i dunno why.
now i know who are the friends that are concern abt me. thanks for being there for me. u know who u are la. haha. dun need list out.
although i need a long long time to recuperate, i really hope im strong. just scared tt when i face my dad, i'll just broke down again.
im very very confused. no appetite. headache. i dun feel well. but i have to go to school so that at least i wun think so much.
my last time calling you dear, laogong, hubby and darling. im sorry, this is the only decision i can make. my heart cannot forgive you, and neither can my parents. i really love you alot. i've never at all love a person so much. you are still the one i love. but we can never be together. i hope you all the best in everything u do.
8:05 PM
