Thursday, October 11, 2007
i was so tired previously. i merely slept for 3 hours plus. i tried not to think of it, but i realised i cant.
ytd after sch, i didnt go home straight away. i went over to pioneer mall. my favourite spot for crying. haha. because over there i got my own space, i know the area whereby there wont be anyone going. sat there like fool.he did call.
and then i went to find an auntie there. giant's cashier. chatted with her for a while and then she told me sth which was a lil unbelievable. she said sth like if i am her girlfriend...for example she's a guy la, she will feel very very insecured. but seriously i dunno why. i walk her to the bus-stop. chatted and then i went back to my fav hideout again.
and then he called again. ask if im picking him up. so i went over. cant be sitting there like an idiot. i pressed him to be honest again. so in the end he got no choice but to admit tt he did went over there. the reason he didnt dare to admit is because he's afraid i'll leave him.
TERRENCE LOO WENG MENG, YOU UNDERESTIMATED MY POWER. YOU THINK YOU ARE SO GREAT TO ASK HIM OUT. I TELL YOU I HATE YOU TO THE CORE. WHO ARE YOU TO CRITICISE ME. YOU ARE ONLY MY FLING. YOU FUCKER. YOU THINK U ARE SO DAMN COOL AR. IDIOT SHIT. U KNOE, U LOOKS LIKE A FUCKER AND A WOMANISER WHEN U FLIRTS ARD. I WISH YOU WERE CAUGHT BY A TP FOR DRIVING AFTER A DRINK. I HOPE U GET INTO A SERIOUS CAR ACCIDENT AND DIE VERY VERY UGLY-LY. YOU ARE JUST A LOSER. BECAUSE I LEFT YOU, YOU WAN HIM TO LEAVE ME TOO. YOU LOSER FUCKER. I LOOK DOWN ON YOU.
alright, i did forgive him after that. i dun wan to spend another night crying and getting insomia. it's terrible. when u are hungry, but u got no appetite. when u are tired but u cant sleep. i hate this feeling. when you tell yourself to concentrate, you can do so. whenever i think of the photos, i feel so uneasy all over again.
although my parents disagree, but i really cant do much. because deep in my heart i still love him alot.
today celebrated ching's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL. you are older than me already. heex. im still happily staying at my 18. bleah!
went to sakura for dinner after that. so full la.
pictures will be uploaded erm....maybe tml or what la. abit lazy can. hee.
alright. off to bloghop. shall stop here.
4:28 PM
