Sunday, September 16, 2007
UPSET! DISAPPOINTED! ANGRY!
i really dun wanna talk abt it, but i think he doesnt have much responsibility for me. we quarrelled a few times last night in front of his friends. and he gave me the black face in front of his friend.
im already very very nice le, what do u expect? i've already try to talk to you, tried to coax you. but u took advantage. if i didnt give ur friend face, i would have left. trust me.
ytd night, when i wanted to go to the restroom, my heels got stuck with the cloth covering the chair, nearly trip, and he just stood there, and ignored me. fine, well done boy. i'll rmb this for life. and fuck is, it's in front of terrence loo weng meng. my ex fling. he can show me his fucking black face, but i cannot even show a black face, i cannot even show a tired face. like i can control lidat. well, and thanks for telling me this is the last time u are bringing me out.
seriously, if u have other girls out there, dun ever look me up. i dunno what's the problem with you nowadays, always finding fault with me. it's not like i've done sth wrong. if other girls can satisfy u well, dun find me, dun ask me back. im tired, really tired. i nearly cried last night.
if not for alvin, i guess i still have to go up to my hse myself. really have to thanks alvin for asking him to send me to my house.
i just wanna say, if one day, i can no longer stand it, i guess my last and only choice is to give up this relationship. i find no reason to stay if this is the shit u are going to give me.
should i call myself stupid to be the one looking for u after ur work, or im just freaking dumb to always stay by ur side. what more do u want? haven i done enough for you?
if u can say 'quarrel ma, what for care if u trip or what.' and i knew what my future will be like. so let's put it in such a way, if one day, there's a heated argument going on, i trip and nearly roll down the stairs, u are not going to care? if one day i nearly fell out of the window while doing hsework, you are not going to care because we quarrelled before that? no, dun explain to me saying that's because at tt time u are angry, i dun wanna hear any explanation.
let's just put it this way, we've both wasted our 2 yrs, our time and money in this stupid relationship that is not going to work out. im not going to be the one looking up for u anyway. i swear, i bet.
seriously, there's nth for me to stay in this relationship. u've completely changed into a different person.
last night, the only thing that makes me happy is, terrence is wearing the earrings i bought for him. he steal glances at me. i caught him thrice.
thats all.
waiting for my dad to wake up so tt we can go over to granny's place later.
bye all.
10:20 AM
