Wednesday, September 19, 2007
sometimes i really dun want to flare at them. but then they make me so-very-unable to tolerate until i just cannot control my temper. okay so this is how it goes....
my father wanted his car to be done by my bf. as in those nitrogen in the tyre, this and that. seriously, i wun side anyone here but i may just sounds like im siding him. it's been drag for some time because it's either it's pouring when my bf wanted to get the car or he's not free to collect our car.
my mother as a -dunno what is going on person- interfere.
my bf's bro is overseas working these 4 days, and so his car was passed to my bf for his transport. so he wasnt thinking of driving my father's car since he had another car.
and then my very dumb mother said: 'ask him to come and take today. the tyre no more air liao somemore the weather nowadays so good, and blah blah blah. ' and then i know what's going on la, so i said: 'he will get it on sunday night' den walau eh, she totally changed la, saying: 'everytime say sunday night, next time dun let him do liao la'
whether it was said out of anger or what, i cant be bothered. and so i tranferred the whole msg to him. because i think i cannot always let my parents be the 'winner'. it's not like my boyfriend owes u ppl lidat. he's so busy, but then...hey, wake up, if u wan ur car to be done, pls kindly drive there instead of him always having to be the one who comes here and collect. and if u ppl wants him to collect it, den pls kindly BE MORE PATIENT. there's nth wrong with our car.
why are u another xiaxue. dare to say it in front of us, dun dare to say it in front of him. i simply cannot stand this kind of attitude. he always undercharge us, help u do this help u do that, give u free things, add a broadway mirror...did he get any amt from u ppl? did u ppl even say a 'thank you'? instead, what did u ppl say, :'why spend this amt to buy another mirror, we are doing fine with the old one'.
please la, got anything go back to toyota la. dun even think of getting a cheaper servicing next time. i tell u, got anything go look for ur own ppl. he's not touching our car anymore and he's not going to help anymore. because u ppl are just TOO MUCH. and being a third party myself is also very tiring.
if i were to judge, i think it's my own parent's fault. they simply think too highly of themselves. that's what i hate abt them.
take for example, i've asked them to remove the double decker bed which always cause me to hit my head against it when i wake up, cannot study on bed because it blocks the light. u ppl drag for how long liao, how many months already? my bro can change new bed, i cannot. because he got himself a super single bed, i gotta take over his bedsheet. fine, everything tt is not good is mine. everything tt is good is HIS. i can be so patient over the months, over the years but my bf drag for some weeks only, and u can even say such thing.
i can seriously tell u, they love my brother more than me. and pls dun drag my father in because sometimes i can feel tt he is more concern for my bro. everything i do is wrong. even eating is a wrong thing.
see, my bro can scream and scold my mother. he can go out late at night. my mother can always be his alarm clock. while me, i have to wake up myself, have to set my own alarm clock, cannot scold her, cannot go out whole day, cannot even go out sometimes.
pls la, im already 18, going 19. i dunno when u ppl are going to stop controlling me. like ytd, when i said i wanted to go to ching hse, cause i scared later i cannot get the modules i wanted den i will start panicking, den she say why cant u do it at home. if ur laptop cannot, den use ur brother one. my laptop can register, just tt im afraid i'll be too nervous and end up with a gems i dun like. somemore, ive been staying at home, helping u teach my lil bro. with no income, nothing. end up, like i OWE u lidat. he's not even my blood brother.
i queue up for donuts, and they were like: 'why go queue for it?' and when i woke up this morning, 4 donuts were gone for good. 1 donut i wanted to try but didnt even get to do it. end up, did i say anything? see, my brother can buy donuts, i cannot. i must stay at home, do this do that. just SIMPLY STAY AT HOME.
now i realise how unfairly i've been treated.
i cnt wear certain clothes because it's not easy to iron it. i cnt wear jeans on rainy day because she will have too many clothes hanging in the kitchen which makes her difficult to cook. and almost all her reasons regards to washing, hanging out clothes and clothes and clothes and clothes.
sometimes i wonder, why my parents doesnt act like a parent?
and sometimes i really feel like shouting at my mother these words: 'if u dun like female, den u should have aborted me long time ago, why bother to give birth to me and treat me like shit, i dun deserve such treatment'. u once told dad:'aiya, bring her go eat lo, u only got one daughter only, u wan more daughter also dun have' seriously, stop ur act.
my father sometimes will say things to my sister which have NO BLOOD RELATION WITH US....see carefully, no blood relation one. he says my sis is more filial, im not filial because i always stick with my bf, he says she's his half daughter.
see! not i want to get angry or what. since she's more filial ask her to be ur own daughter, change the surname from ong to lau la. i dun give a damn! im always not filial. i bought u a $70+ wallet, and u ask my brother to use it since his wallet is lost. hey, WAKE UP. i bought it for u, and u in turn wans to give it to ur filial and baby son who is rich enough to get a wallet himself.
u said u like certain food, i nv fails to buy it back for u. just to make u happy. end up this is the FUCKING treatment im getting.
im so stupid im so dumb. i shouldnt treat anyone good in future. seriously i get nothing in return.
okay, my blood is boiling, so i shouldnt say too much.
8:50 AM
