Thursday, August 02, 2007
i think i'll go crazy. go crazy worry-ing for him. go crazy doing proj.
it just hit me. when im in the midst of preparing the notes, i thought of him in the police station. like why why why. because there's so much procedures and i cant be there for him...both of us was worried and scared. i dunno why.
or maybe because he's part of my life. i want to be there for him for any secs, mins. yet i dunno why there's sth which i cant overcome. TRUST. is it because i've been cheated in my previous r/s or is it because i've been fling-ing with guys when im attached tt i feel this fear, the fear tt the same thing will happen to me? retribution?
i know it's wrong to hook up with his best friend, i know it's wrong to fling, but sometimes feelings cant be controlled. and i've learnt my mistake and i've already tried changing. i dun wan the same thing to happen to me because i dun want to share a boyfriend with others. call me selfish or what, but i dun like the feeling of sharing a boyfriend with others.
i just hope to go back to the past.
bad headache.
i feel like hugging him now.
12:30 AM
