Wednesday, June 20, 2007
sometimes i just hope u were there for me when i needed you. yet time and again im the one facing everything alone.
past few days have been feeling sick in my stomach. too gassy causing me to burp for no reason. i dun feel hungry, i dun feel full. want to vomit but nth comes out. mummy ask me to apply ru yu you. the oil baby always apply one. sweat a lot in the middle of the night.
told him abt it, he just said go and see doc la. he nv made an effort to visit the doctor with me, nv make an effort to visit me. it's not tt im thinking too much or what. for this 2 yrs, he's only visited the doc with me once. everytime when he's ill, im the one who acc him to the doc, look after him at home, give him medicine.
all he could provide was money which is of no use to me.
cysts hurt. and when i told him, all he said was 'go for ur checkup la, i pass u my atm tml u go. if not keep worrying here also no use' see, i have to face everything by myself. i think i can predict tt when im in the hospital to operate (if suay suay it expand) den i still have to be the one lying down there with the companion of my parents. and so let me just say sth here, if touch wood i have to undergo operation, he'll be the last to be inform. im sorry to say this but this is the treatment i've been getting from u, and so let's jus be ignorant.
im going to bed. night.
11:35 PM
