Tuesday, May 15, 2007
there was this unhappiness...i dunno how i should categorise it under. somehow, sometimes i do regret. regret many many things. god! i wish i was dead.
i dunno what's wrong with our relationship. sometimes i really wonder where i stands in his heart.
it's not like i dun like him interacting with his family, it's more on who's more impt. i know to him, parents are more impt. im perfectly okay with it, but....why do you always sides with them and rather chose them over me.
i love my mummy n daddy too, but i dun usually side with them when i know it's time i should be with my boyfriend. i know how to divide the time among them, why cant you? i've been so tired...tired tt im always the one picking you up at work, tired tt i have to be the one looking for you, going over to ur place...tired tt i've to forgo my friends because of you...i really feel like breaking down.
i wanted to call kor...yet...i dunno why i've to think twice because i dun wan any misunderstanding...
i dunno why he just suddenly called and said, 'on vesak day im going to go fishing with my dad. so no time for you'...
fine...it's okay tt you dun have time for me.
i asked him if i can join my friends for sakae on thurs, he said NO. fine. and then he told me he gt company's dinner on saturday. den definately i'll say NO. and then the quarrels came....
'hey it's not fair that you gets to go out with your friends and i dont'
'no, it's because no matter what i know what time i should pick you up, what time i should meet you, what time i should stop shopping...'
'it's unfair still'
'no because saturday night you are usually with me and the time slot belongs to ME'
'den both dun go lo'
'no, you go for your dinner since you want to be with them SOOO much...and i'll be with my frens...'
'forget it. both dun go'
alright. this was it. i've enough. sometimes i wonder...why????
it's been so long ever since i visit my gynae. i should be visiting but i cant find the time.
GUYS ARE HORRIBLE CREATURES.
10:30 PM
