Thursday, May 31, 2007
i was supposed to join daddy n her for breakfast today but i rejected them. i cancelled everything just to meet up with him.
we were supposed to go out for breakfast, and he's supposed to pick me up in the morning, but since i was the first to got up and get myself ready, so i went over instead. because i was waken by my dad early in the morning, i was kinda tired so i slept together with him, and so we forgo out breakfast and his mummy have to take-away for us. i was very very hungry by the time i woke up which is ard 11.15. and he was still slping away so no choice, lie down and pretending to slp again.
breakfast become brunch. and den after breakfast we went back to slp again. he said to wake up at 12.30 for shopping. and so he woke up at 12.45 instead so i was thinking since he likes to slp so much, den must well stay home and slp. and so we quarrelled because of this. drag till ard 2 plus den we went out. but it wasnt a happy start.
scolded me for sth which is not my fault, and den accusing me and den comparing to other couple's relationship. which girl can endure when their guy compare r/s with others. i tried to hide my un-happiness. and den he said sth which was very very hurting. i didnt talk much. i didnt talk back. i was quiet thru'out the whole quarrel.
on the way to boon lay, i dunno why either, he switched on 'chi xin jue dui' until damn loud. it's like he's hinting that whatever he's done, i dunno at all. it should be me trying to hint him and not him. yet and again i dunno why im treating him so nicely when he can treat me like shit. and then i realise i could no longer hold my tears anymore. it was like sth controlling my heart n tears. for tt particular moment i thought of leaving and hoping he'll find someone better. it's still a 2 yr r/s. it's not sth which you can let go so easily. u get it?
there's still many many shadows in my mind and the un-mended heart that may just get frozen anytime from now.
sometimes i just hope im no longer ard.
11:25 PM
