Monday, April 30, 2007
once and again i feel so fed up.
i didnt ask you to report your whereabouts, and i hope u wouldn't expect me to report every single details. your friends ask u out, go ahead. im not stopping you. you don't need to keep calling and report and create such an impression of me to your frens tt i need you to report everything. -like i said, i wun be there for you all the time.
now tt your friends have commented such things...you know how irritated i feel? like im not stopping you and yet u are the one calling me all the time. this is why i say i hate your frens. did my friends ever interrupted our conversation? THEY DID NOT. or maybe should i say your friends aren't educated enough to RESPECT you and im someone who needs RESPECT.
i hate it when you smoke, did you even made an effort to quit? 1 years 11 mths of r/s, from the first day till now, i gave you lots and lots of time. isn't it long enough. i keep quiet about it, and yet u can't sense any unhappiness in me. i thought maybe one day u can surprsied me by quitting, yet u didnt.
you enjoyed smoking, you love smoking.
i've told you before lots and millions of time, smoking is no good. you insisted on, and so what can i say.
a relationship with so many downs. i really dunno if i wanna continue. i've shedded enough tears, yet i dunno what's the things that is forcing me to stay. we've broken up many times, and again we'll go back to each other. is this wad i've owed him in my previous life?
mummy voiced out sth again this morning which makes me even more unhappy. it's always mummy n daddy's thinking. i know they care, i know they love me. i know they are freaking worried abt my future, tt's why daddy keeps encouraging me to study hard study hard. i will and i've tried. i cant.
they wanted me to enter uni. you think with my freaking lousy results, im able to get in? FAT HOPES!
i want to watch tv.
8:00 PM
