Saturday, March 17, 2007
was super duply unhappy. very very pek chek with him.
his father ask him to wake up at 3 am in the morning, he agreed without much thoughts. i asked him to wake up at 5+ am, he complain here and there, ask me why so early etc etc. ok fine, since ur dad have so big a power, go and stay with him. u r not going to get married, u r not going to have me. u r to look after ur parents until they die, give them all ur salary etc. dun have to care abt me. i wun be left on the shelve. or maybe u can go look for another family-oriented gf. im not ur type. neither r u my type.
went shopping with von today. from fareast to bugis n then from bugis to fareast again. prolly because i needed to get my shoes and also von needs to get her top.
we saw a very very cute n charming sales assistant. wah piang, i ask for discount den he smile smile and say okay la. wah....von n me was like: 'his eyes so cute....' omg....i think i'll jus faint when i see him the next time. well, nvm, since he works at bugis and my office is at bugis, i still gt chance to catch a glimpse of him when i go home. all i have to do is to take a longer route and walk into bugis street jus to see him. oh my god!!!!!!!!
bought a spaghetti top at blossom, blouse at red2 and anna nucci's heels. wah...jus mainly tt shoe cost me 58.80. faint. nvm, as long as it's nice la. and finally i added a new colour to my wardrobe. the 2 tops i bought is RED in colour. wah.
anyway while waiting for von at orchard mrt station, a stupid assistant of a modelling agency approach me. she started off with:'hi im from a modelling agency n we are looking for good looking people like you. what's ur name and ur hp no.?'
i dun even have a chance to say anything or reject her and she wanted to pen down my name and no.
afterwhich i started observing the ppl she finds. wapiang, fat ppl also can, not very pretty one also can....well, fine. haha. but but but...im not trying to say im pretty jus tt some really cannot make it one. haha. i know i also cnt make it la, so stop gossiping la. haha.
everytime when i needed him, he wasnt there for me. it's like not even once. i know afterall im jus a substitute but i didnt even treated him like one. i admit i sucks at relationship issue. im someone who's so fuckingly unfair, such a bitch, such an idiot, such a busybody, such an irritating person, such a slutty person.
i needed a doc asap. things seems to worsen n i felt the pain most of the time. but time doesnt allow. i was thinking of taking mc to visit a doc because i dun like squeezing with ppl on weekends and den waking up early in the morning jus to queue up.
for tt moment i wish im dead.
sorry, i needs to be alone.
10:27 PM
