Sunday, March 11, 2007
how many hundreds and thousands of times mus u lie? dun always use my godfather as an excuse. im no longer a 3 yr old kid. i dun believe in anything u say.
from the way u twist n turn wadever u told ur friends, i know tt out of 10 sentences, 9 are those u made up with. i've tried to believe, tried to be convinced by u, yet i realise i cant anymore.
i know tt being together, trust is the most impt of all, but right now i dun tink im able to do so. never will i. i dun wanna repeat but i still have to say. guys lying n lying to me time and again, is one of the reason why i dun wana trust u anymore. secondly is because u can even lie to ur fren.
i know im always last in ur mind, ur heart. from ur actions and all that, i mean u dun have to specifically show it verbally, from all ur actions and all, it's pretty obvious.
relationship is yet another on and off thing for me. sometimes i'll fall deeply and sometimes i'll try to withdraw. many a times, i've tried to forgive n forget and as times goes by, i realise i can no longer take it anymore.
i know it has been a big blow to u abt tt accident thingy, i know im not contributing much...im jus adding on to ur troubles. i know other girls can treat u better, go ahead. in this world, everything is jus a routine. u get out of a r/s, and u get into another r/s. is pretty normal, isnt it?
maybe without me, life would be better for u, u may be happier. im so much a burden for u, aint i? when it's the time to leave i will. dun hold me back unless im still the one whom u love unless u r able to forget tt girl, unless u r willing to sacrifice.
it's never easy for me. never ever. jus because of u, how many times have my parent turn their back on me? do u know? u expected me to stay out late with u, u never spare a thought on my parents, and on me. when i gets home my dad was angry and so was my mum. meeting up with u frequently was also a torture to my ear. i've tried, i've tolerated. how many times was i scolded for not visiting my granny and yet i always have time for you?
u nv realise the sacrifices i've made. u made it as if it's sth which i owe u and now i've to repay. i hate staying home, and u love to sleep and sleep...making me watch u sleep and den my day was gone.
i know tt being together, is not of going for a movie or going shopping is the amt of quality time spent together. but i hate this kind of lifestyle. it makes me feel like a sua gu.
in my house, i've to give u face, cannot flare up with u or wad...in ur house u can jus shout at me lidat. who am i? ur maid ar? or ur dog?
hatred!
9:18 PM
