Saturday, February 03, 2007
absolutely no idea wad's going on today. somehow i feel so confuse over many many matters and it's so hard for me to force myself to focus on finance. another year wasted. with no improvement in result, may even drop. wadever it is, i dun care anymore. im so sick n tired of life.
it doesnt matter much. nth matters to me anymore. i dun take things seriously like before. i dun care if u wan it or not. i wun force u, nth. everything seems so different. im behaving even more differently. i dunno why i treated u like this, like i totally dun care. i make it sounds like it's nth.
i dunno for wad-so-ever reason, i just keep telling dear, 'even if u dun wan me, im sure someone will wan me'. im not trying to say anything here la. but tt's wad i think. i definately wun last with a guy who doesnt know how to cherish me. im just trying to emphasis tt 'he should cherish me, else i will give the chance to others who's after me'. im hinting him already, it's up to him to decide.
okay, so jl says he will call me last night. i fell asleep. and when i wanted to make a phone call today, i saw his house no. on the call list and i actually received the call. but he claims he hung up after 3 rings. haha. okay la, so heng he nv hear me snore. haha. (hey i dun snore)
going for hair steaming tml. gonna see wardrobe with mama tml too. wah, like so many things to do but c'mon i need to study la. hell.
dun care dun care dun care. im jus going to heck with everything.
bye
11:45 PM
