Monday, January 08, 2007
when i thought everything was okay, it wasnt. i was so fucking looking forward to meeting him on wednesday but he said he gt classes after work. i dunno whether i should believe him anot. there's too many loopholes in his lies. firstly, he said his fren driving him back, then his fren should know where he wanted to drop off at, but today, he drop off at a completely different place. secondly i've never heard him say he have any classes. so in the end he asked to meet on tues, which is a BIG NO NO for me. most probably im not meeting for the whole of this week.
actually there's no need to tell me how much i mean to u. from the way you treated me, from the way you talk and everything, i knew i was nth much to you. if lying makes u feel less guilty, then be it. if i have to always give in to ur time, den im so sorry, i cant always do that. im actually thinking of changing out meeting times to once a week. basically i've gt a warning from my dad. ytd i quarrelled with mum because of you. so since i stand no place in ur heart, we shall jus meet lesser and lesser since it doesnt matter. i dun want to be always the one initiating to meet and u expecting me to go over every public holiday. there mus really be a stop to this because i realised im clinging on too tight.
it was now den i realise someone has been monitoring me. haha. im not naming the person out la. lol.
i'll be my uncle's wife's bridemaid. im so looking forward. heex.
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