Friday, January 26, 2007
should i believe or not??? still in a dilema. his friend spoke to me, everyone is trying to help him. and me, it's jus so hard for me to forget wad i heard. he claims they have no r/s, nth at all. his supervisor morhan was kinda fed up with the girl after he knew abt it.
had a lil conversation with his fren, ah kim. he told me tt the girl called him and another guy darling too. but yet i told him im not as open minded as wad he thinks i am. he says he understand how i feel. he told me he doesnt want my r/s with him ended because of a girl who obviously lose all the criteria to me. he said he will nv fall for a girl who's older than him, fat, and behaves like an auntie. he asked me to go over to stamford to look for andy later. he says partly he wanted to see me too (which i know was sth he said to make me happy la, but im obviously not).
yup, and i did went over. i didnt know he suffered so much because of me. not until now. he told me he threw away his breakfast, threw away the pack of rice after a few spoonful etc. all of a sudden, i felt so guilty. he kneeled b4 me ytd to plead me not to leave him, he told me he cant live without me...his mum was so worried abt him committing suicide( i think so) tt she follows him wherever he goes.
even though i've tried to forget the whole issue, but every now and then it jus replay thru my mind and tears will eventually roll down. i've tried not to think abt it yet i cant.
my papers is jus a few days away. i have totally no confidence for audit and finance paper. and now im losing confidence over taxation.
i felt so messed up with everything now.
2:00 AM
