Wednesday, January 24, 2007
it all ended. i requested for the break. wad's there to say when i found out tt he two-timed me. i know i did two-time him too but right now tt's not the case anymore.
i can no longer trust guys. not anymore. all my past few r/s ended mostly due to third party. i dun wanna get into any r/s anymore. im really really tired. i think im giving up my r/s with baby too.
i dunno how to break the news to daddy n mummy. i dun wan to say until half and then jus broke into tears. daddy's long awaiting dream finally comes true. when he actually accepted him recently, yet he cheated me.
i dun wan anymore explanation. no matter how u explain i'll nv forget wad u did to me, how u cheated me. it's nv been in my family line for guys to two-time, i mean girls too but i did. i dunno how my granny will react. i think she will jus blow her top off and said many stuff like how young i m etc. ya i know im young, but im really looking for a r/s tt will turn out well, and i can get married in a few years time. i wanted my own family etc etc. i wan my granny n grandad to be present on the day of my wedding. i wanted so many things...yet, my dreams are all gone.
regarding baby, well. i dunno how im going to blog it down. but still i'll write wad i think i feel...
with me ard or not, it doesnt matter much. even if one day i left, it will mean nth to u. right?
fling is jus a fling. i dun have to tk it seriously but i've put in so much.
i felt so empty. i've return him all the jewellery. should i be hinting mum to get me some. haha. no way man. they are changing sofa soon, and there's so many things they have to pay for. i think i will jus let my bank be empty for some time so tt i can pamper myself.
tt's all. i'll not think abt it anymore. today will be the day i cry my lungs out. after tt i have to study n study already. i've to keep myself really occupied so my mind wun wonder off. bye.
11:20 PM
