Sunday, December 17, 2006
there were so many words left unspoken. i really dunno how to start. maybe all along i dun understand u at all. i've learnt but i really dun think im able to understand. ur perspective of everything seems to differ from mine. the way u handle things is so different from me. maybe it's the age gap. maybe this, maybe that. who knows?
when u say this, u didnt do it at all. maybe i was jus too naive to believe every lil things u say. ya, im naive. im jus a plain 18 yr old teenager. wad do i understand abt love. pure childish-ness. pure ignorance. pure stupidity. ha.
i did mention in my entry on 2dec that im not someone u can happily fool ard with. sometimes i wanted to tell u straight in the face on how i feel but it's so hard to find the time, besides that i dun even have the guts to say it infront of u. afraid that u might be angry with me, afraid that u might jus ignore me.
i really love the song i placed in my blog, but somehow this is not sth which i feel. im changing songs again.
i dunno how to describe my feelings. somehow i wanna be alone. there's so much i wan to think over. so much things i regret saying in the past.
yet another emo me.
mixed feelings.
i hate everythings ard me.
things will never be the same again.
11:08 AM
