Saturday, December 16, 2006
sometimes things are jus so hard to predict.
this may be a lengthy entry.
last night wasnt a happy one for me. maybe because too many things happen, yet im trying hard to smile. i dun wan to but ive no choice. already tried so if it doesnt work, dun blame me.
didnt really go into details of things last entry. actually i dunno how im gonna put it. wanted so much to explain it in chi, but somehow i didnt insert the chi thingy in my lappy. so forget it. gonna put it in eng den.
i dunno whether i should be jealous or should i envy her. i really dunno. when we are out, he tends to think of their wedding etc. as if i dun exist. im not the bride, so dun bring me along if u r doing things for her. it's like last week when we went out. again is for their tour thingy. brought me in, and den make phone calls to her. i dunno wad impression i've given the assistant. a spoiler or a wad-so-ever. i really dunno. im not blaming u or wad, but sometimes please spare a thought for my feelings. wad will ppl think of me.
i thought abt it for the whole night. well, i cant do anything because afterall im jus a nobody to u. that's why even though i miss u like crazy, i stop myself from msg-ing u, i stop myself from revealing to u how much i miss you. because i know no matter how much i miss you, i dun get the sme treatment back. u'll jus receive it and then do nth at all. and that's also the reason why sometimes i can even dun sms u or call u for the whole day. ying(4) wei(4) ni(3) de(4) bu(4) zai(4) hu(1), shi(2) wo(3) bu(4) xiang(3) zai(4) fu(4) chu(1) le(4).
went to look for granny in the morning. im not suppose to go in the morning, because very early, and im left with nth to do at granny's place. at first baby told me he will meet me to get from me the tour thingy, so i decided to go to granny's place early. called n called. he didnt pick. i didnt know he didnt go for work. i thought sth bad happen. he make me so worried, i almost went berserk. was controlling my tears at granny's place. on the way to jurong point, still never pick my call, almost broke down in the bus. like wth. ard 5plus den he woke up. thank god. he sleep till so late.
hmmm...nvm, anyway i shouldnt be the one being so worried. it's not as if he know how worried i am. humph.
anyway went for dear's colleague wedding dinner. for malays so is held at void deck. haha. his bunch of crappy fren. lol. ask us to go sit at the groom and the brides seat. lame sia. haha. den the next person ask us when we getting married. haha. still not so early man. mus wait till financially stable, etc etc...den we will get married. lol. getting married is not that easy. nowadays there's so many married couples getting divorce, so it's better to be tgt for like 5 years or so den get married. haha. that's for me la. lol. i dun wanna end up everyday quarrelling for nth. if this is wad i get after marriage, i rather be single. lol.
let's not talk abt marriage.
im still young. haha. dun wanna get tied down by unnecessary stuff. bleah.
holidays are here.....ENJOY.....
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