Monday, December 11, 2006
NIGHTMARES!!!....
well, i really dunno how im going to start. seems to traumatise me for quite some time.
was on my way home, reached my void deck was talking to dear and as i stepped into the lift, there was another guy coming by. he entered the lift, and when i asked him which floor, he jus point to the level i pressed. so i thought maybe he's alighting at 11th storey.
i stepped out of the lift (already ended my call with dear), as he was the first to step out, i dunno did his phone rang or was he jus pretending, he took a step back, allowing me to go first. followed me. somehow i sense sth wrong, so i keep turning ard, as if looking out of the corridor, so afraid that there might be someone who's going to rob me or wad.
nth happen. turn towards my unit, took the stairs down and after awhile he overtook me. weird. normally people wun overtk someone on the stairs. worse of all, i've never seen him before menaning he dun stay at my blk. it's as if someone opposite was looking over n talking over the phone with him. as he overtook me, his eyes keeps turning up, trying to peek under my skirt, i stared at him everytime he looked up. helpless as i was, i cant do anything. i dun dare tell dear abt it. if i were to tell him, i wun get a chance to wear any skirts.
i feel so uncomfortable. did tell baby abt the incident because actually im supposed to pass him his genting tour thingy tonight, so i told him i dun have any more guts to go down at this hour. IM SO SORRY.
i feel so insulted, so angry so fucked up with him, so dirty. if i were to see him again, i will definately kick his cock hard and make him an eunuch.
i feel like crying.why does it happen to me??? for the past 14 years i stayed here, nth happen. i hate all the damn bloody fucking guys who's so pervert. all you tink was ur own desire, nv care bt the feelings of gals. get a life, geylang is open for u. if u wanna peep at ppl under their skirt or wad so ever, go do it in geylang dun do it outside ppl's flat. sicko.
i dun wanna go out, i dun wanna stay out late. i dun wanna go anywhere. home is still the safest place.
i dunno how to tell dear. i dun wanna stay at his hse on wed until 9pm. i dun dare to go home. it's only 7.15 and such thing happen to me today, let alone 9. i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan.
i've to make do with shorts and jeans for this few days.
taxation today was a killer. i dunno how im gonna flunk hard at it.
after tml's facc, i can relax abit le. haha.
still unhappy abt certain things. i dunno why, somehow all u think of was for urself to be happy, u neglected my feelings. u msg when u need me, and ignore me when ur belongings finally gt back to u.
wo bu hui zai fu chu ren he dong xi le.
10:45 PM
