Monday, December 11, 2006
again, i feel that im being abandon again. dun wanna explain, dun wanna go into details. im tired of repeating. jus that i believe if i dun blog this down, there's no way i can get to slp.
quite tired. tired of everything ard me. hating every single soul.
let me jus make it clear, accept me for who i am, and not wad i am. i dun change because of wad ppl thinks of me. if i have to change for them, im not myself. when i dun smile to strangers, it means that i DON'T KNOW THEM. dun make it sounds like i have to smile to every single one out dere. DUN COMPARE ME WITH OTHERS. I SIMPLY HATES IT. it's not like u ppl ever chat wit me, exchange any conversation with me. well maybe those who know me well understand wad kind of person i am. i may give ppl an 'ah lian' impression, but if u knoe me well, im not. i know that if i dun smile, it looks as if im pulling a long face, let me declare IM NOT. i dun think i should smile to ppl like you. i hate your character, i hate everything abt u. u urself can pull a long face in front of ppl, why cant i? i jus dun smile when im alone. i like to daydream i like to let my thoughts wonder. i wun let anyone or anything interfere my dream. DO YOU PPL GET IT? when i walk, i feel that im the only one on the pathway or road, i didnt take it as if u ppl exist. i dunno u ppl that's why i dun smile. for ur info, i dun like to be like a stupid fool smiling everywhere i go. jus accept me, if not dun bother me. im not getting into ur ways, so dun step on my tail, else i will make life difficult for u.
i jus fucking hate this world and everyone.
LEAVE ME ALONE.
12:21 AM
