Tuesday, November 07, 2006
still feeling low. very very confused. again i doubted your words. left me in dilema. nv at all smile today. fakeness, mask worn over my face. hidden sorrows.
im so tired always being the one initiating. i know i ought to be more understanding, i've tried so hard, i've cried so hard. things happen for a reason. but still i dunno ur reasons for ignoring me. i was so tired of waiting till i switched off that phone because if i dun switch off, i'll be waiting and waiting.
maybe it was the hunger that spoilt my entire mood. unable to concentrate.
i will not call i will not text. because i am always last in your mind. nv will u take the initiative. when one gets tired of doing things and getting nth in returns, she knows the answer.
i still miss u, i still love you. but when i realise i gt nth in return, i gave up.
shall blog more abt friends from now on. haha.
was on the phone with junliang last night disturbing him. haha. he tried FF for 3 times still cannot get 80%. and this afternn he was damn weird sent me an sms saying, 'lol...a bit listless liao...tired ba...slept at 5' super wu liao lo. den after tt he tell me he gt no confidence in his driving test. lol.
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