Friday, November 03, 2006
the msg sent last night, the words said this morning. totally hurt. i nv thought i was right all along. sad, heartbroken.
during facc, i knew i could no longer control the tears which is gonna fall anytime. went to the toilet, stayed there for like some 20mins. thinking, replaying everything u've said. tears flow down without stopping. over my neck and all over the floor. i dunno why, i was so affected by it.
went back to lecture, thought facc lecture is over le, but still haven. when it was finally over, i called pearly over. at first we chatted outside the lec hall, but after tt i couldnt control myself and we proceeded to the toilet. i broke down in front of her again. i felt so helpless. there's nth she could do but to watch me cry. my eyes was swollen. lack of slp and due to crying. worse of all was, vincent saw me crying, some lec hall guys saw it. embarrassing.
sorry ching. didnt inform u all when i went to the toilet. disappeared for 20mins and didnt reply to ur sms. of course i didnt drop into the toilet bowl. haha.
i waited and waited. keeping myself busy all the time. u said u'll call. but u didnt.
wasnt paying much attention to lecture because i was thinking of him. when i realise there's no way i can control my tears, i stopped thinking. i asked him why. why treat me lidat. i rather someone be frank with me.
this was the first time i cried so hard in sp. i've nv lock myself in a cubicle and sob non-stop. why must it be someone whom i've love for so long, someone whom i loved so much. i dunno why.
presentation today was fine. at least my grp was considered the best among the others. -self proclaim- haha. but but but. when our teacher was asking us wad was the shirt tt pearly wore, i felt sad again. -there's no sin in loving man. only pain.- very very true. vincent wore -no man is worth ur tears- haha. okok. nth much.
i didnt get to finish watching the talentine. sad. haiz. forget it.
10:25 PM
