Thursday, November 30, 2006
like wad i've guess, the meeting was cancelled. somehow i was prepared jus tt i was a lil upset with him because i dunno the reason was real or jus sth which he make up.
i dunno why thru'out the journey to sch, my whole face was completely BLACK. any guy who walk past and look at me, i'll jus stare hard at them. no smile, nth. it makes me hate guys so much. love to them is nth, but it's sth so hurting for the gals.
maybe i should blame myself for believing every word he says. so stupid of believing that he ONCE like me. feelings fade but for his case, he was not fading but it's sth which doesnt exist. i understand. but this time round i wun believe wad guys says. wad they want was sth which is kinda hard to explain. well actually i dun wanna say it here. u guys knew it urself. im not some slave. get it?
no doubt my eyes was swollen when i woke up. i refuse to get out of bed. i listen to mp3, listen to the songs in my phone. until my parents were out den i took a bath. ready to go out and den some ppl cant make it. but as planned i went to sch.
so now im in sch typing this entry, not bothering abt my proj mates. haha. i know it's bad but if i dun blog this down, everything will be like messing and going round in my mind and i wun be able to concentrate or wad.
will ytd be the last??? the last gift for u, the last day we meet the last of everything? well, god knows. i cant be bothered.
i've change the song in my blog. it describe everything happening now.
confused.
leave me alone.
bye.
10:15 AM
