Friday, November 03, 2006
i know i should be sleeping right now. still gt presentation, still gotta support bradley tml. but but but. all of a sudden i felt lost. i dunno wad im doing. so confuse. somehow i hate myself a lot a lot. my mind drifted to somewhere...very very far away.
was it gonna be the start of another self-torture or....
was on the phone with pearly. i called her. because i was afraid of somethings tt actually happen to her. i told her abt my thinking, we gossip abt vincent. haha.
maybe i might jus leave. i hate facing the reality. i hate this world. i hate everything ard me. things jus wasnt right for me. i felt irritated easily, i thought of escaping. it's soon gonna be MST. i dunno how im going to concentrate.
maybe single life suits me the most. maybe it's time for me to be independent. maybe it's time for me to go.
i hate myself for being so emotional. i hate everything that happens ard me.
yet another sleepless nite.
the smile that nv exist, the heart which is forever heavy. the girl who lose her senses.the girl who was numb by love. the girl who dun believe true love exist. the girl who wants to be independent from now on. the girl who's trying to escape from reality. the girl who's giving up everything ard her. the girl who hate herself so much. the girl who was once willing to give up everything because of him.the girl who once lied to everyone because of him. the girl who was hurt by this particular guy on 3rd nov 2006, 00.26 the girl who is willing to neglect everything ard her because of him. she may not smile anymore....at least not until she find someone who loves her as much as she loves him, not until she find someone who will treasure her. her heart was broken into hundred thousand million pieces. nv be mended back. life still goes on. she may not smile, she may not be happy. she live for the sake of her parents, her family. for her beloved class, for her fav girlfriend. ignorant is a bliss.
12:36 AM
