Tuesday, October 24, 2006
sneak to vivo city. didnt tell dear abt it. i told him im having make-up lesson due to tues de public holiday. so he believed it. haha. watch silk with my belove classmates. the screaming and laughter haha. can u imagine. lol. i love my class.
i dunno why today i couldnt keep my mind off him. yes it's terrence again. haiz. i think and think. will his heart change once he's back from taiwan? is his love for me jus a temporary one or is that he wanna try the excitement of two-timing. i felt so confused. so confused that i was talking my heart out with edmond during finance tutorial.
sometimes i may be stubborn, unwilling to listen to any ppl's advise. making myself suffer, wasting ppl's saliva jus to make sure im fine. but still i couldnt actually bring myself back to reality. im sinking deep till i could no longer float.
right now, im jus hoping tt his feelings will not change once he's back from taiwan. im waiting for him as promised. i hope he wun lie to me, i hope i hope and i hope. saturday 6+ was our last sms until today. tues morning. 5 more days. if his heart changes within this week, den maybe all along im wrong.
let's wait till saturday. i'll stay up super late. jus for you again. i hope u wun let me down.
waiting in despair.
12:22 AM
