Wednesday, September 27, 2006
last night a guy call terence chatted with me over the phone. he told me sth which make me very sad. but haiz, if there's really no more fate, den really mus end it. the whole nite i couldnt slp. cried and cried. i fear losing him.
msg him. didnt call back because he's fast aslp.
in the morning, i told him abt terence. he's not the terence i like de. haha. den he was very very angry with me. scolded me over the phone etc. sad. at least im honest to him. at least i let him know. at least i tried to work out the whole relationship. wad abt him?
had a
big quarrel with him just now. very sad. sometimes i really wanna give up, but i dunno wad is stopping me. really clue-less. i dun have the ability to be independent. maybe i relied on him too much. every wed, fri etc, ard 5 plus will go look for him. time passes real fast for me. but...well, i dunno wad i should say.
he claims tt i make him tulan. talking to me will make him vomit blood. so i told him den break. if it's so difficult den no point being together. frm then he started scolding me non-stop. i did so many things for him, did so many things for his family, and this is the kind of treatment i gt. housework like sweeping the floor, mopping the floor, washing of toilets, everything i do for them. i didnt even help mum at home. i didnt even dare to tell dad. i know he will be so heartbroken if he found out. why his daughter turn out lidat? it's all because im under the control of love.
my mind is in a mess. i feel so terrible.
SK called. telling me my necklace is ready for collection. im still thinking if i should collect. so many memories. it's bought by him. memories but the purpose wasnt there already.
he's confessed.
everything is ending.
11:01 PM
