Tuesday, September 12, 2006
feeling a lil vexed. every lil things jus makes me fed up, tulan and make me lose my temper.
msg-ed with pearly. felt much better. at least with her i can jus say wadever shit i want. understanding and patient with me. when im bored, she'll msg with me to keep me occupied. i would say it's so hard to find a fren like this. i know she wun visit my blog, but at least a lil msg means sth. thanks gal. also wanna thanks my readers esp disillusioned. okay la, at least he's the one who bother to tag n 'entertain' me. wahaha.
i did mention i cant live without him, i did mention he meant a lot to me. but i know in his heart i no longer stand the same position in his heart. i knew all along after every quarrel his feelings for me faded. he dun dare admit. i dun wanna pursue further. sometimes i did think of giving this r/s up. i wanna be single again. i really wan to b single. im so tired of being tied down in a r/s. but it's hard. i regretted a lot. i did talked to pearly abt remaining single and how i missed those days whereby i can hang out with lots of guy friends, not worry-ing abt anything. now, i cant. i can only hang ard with gers. sometimes i wanted to know how guys think, wad's their opinon on some things, but i cant. cant talk to guys, cant meet them up.
jus let me vent. vent it all out. i hate everything. i hate putting on a smile. im not the 'yu xi zhen' in lovely samsoon who smile as if nth worries her. i can no longer carry the smile with me. sometimes i really feel like crying out loud. i wanna go back to sec sch. poly life isnt sth i enjoy.
set me free.
10:36 AM
