Monday, August 14, 2006
so should i say i bring this upon myself or should i in turn be more to the 'external locus of control' and says tt tax pp to me was difficult. ok. so it was chicken feet to everyone besides me. maybe not everyone, i tink edmond also tink so. at the end of the day, im still the last few.
i know i still have 3 more papers. haa. i should pull up my socks instead of crying over spilled milk, but i kept thinking and thinking. shouldnt have gone praying. it doesnt help. at least not for me. im not someone who holds joss sticks, not someone who's so loyal, so tell me why should buddha watch over me. so lame.
something to announced. may shock many of you, but i still have to announce. mi and dear patch up le. on tt day when he eventually send me home in his fren car, we were listening to 'jiekou' by jay chou, those forgiving lyrics. he sang it. i was so touched. cried. but we didnt patch up together on tt day la. the next day he asked me again if he still hve a chance, i told him no. i knew i was lying, i knew i was trying to make myself sound strong, but eventually i cried so hard again. i cant bear to abandon this 14 mth r/s. so much effort. i msg-ed him once again, i told him there's still chance, though maybe my feelings may fade.
now, since he's promised his fren not to shout at me, i believe he will keep his promise. recently no one scold me. wahaha. okok. no matter wad i still love him dearly. muack.
shall stop here le
11:46 PM
