Tuesday, August 01, 2006
i feel so sad all of a sudden.
he expect me to report everything to him, but wad did i get in return. does he call me to tell me his whereabout? no. he didnt. dun ask why we are doing that to each other, i know it's childish to u ppl, jus shut up.
im tinking of leaving him. really leave him once and for all. i cannot tolerate his attitude towards me, everything i do is wrong, and he is always so right. for so many days, i tolerated, trying to be strong but i really couldnt. i broke down. i asked myself does i really love him or is it tt i needed companion. no a relationship shouldnt be like this okay. it's filled with love, trust and communication. wad abt ours? lack of trust, communication and sometimes love. i dun love him animore. he beginning to hate me. i know. everyone loves me in the beginning but starts to hate me thereafter.
i know im being selfish rejecting other guys. i should be more open in future. im not going to care abt wad people think of me. im going back to my flirt style. love me for who i am and not wad i am. i dun care wad other ppl gonna say. im not going to be bothered by wadever going on. im going to jus BE MYSELF.
actually today is suppose to be a fun day. disturbing poh poh, playing ard, being rude being totally ourselves. ching and kelly, glad the 3 of us enjoyed ourselves to the fullest. thanks gals for being part of my life and bringing laughter for me.
but as u ppl know every happiness have an ending. a moment im being hate by him, im angry with him, im controlling my tears. the other moment i am having fun with kelly, ching and eng poh. and den the next moment he picked me up at clementi. and den the very next moment we quarrel. forget it. im not going into deep details. everything will end as it is. no more tears for him. i've gotta be strong. i believe i can find someone who cherish will cherish me, dote on me, and love me for who i am. he's not the one, definately.
so fast, it's been one year plus tt we are together. u were considered part of my life, im considered to be part of ur family. joining them for dinners etc. im sorry to disappoint everyone. im leaving you for good. dun ask me back. that's the only solution to the whole relationship. thanks for being with me all these while. thanks for tolerating my nonsense and childishness. i promise no more of that. bye and tk care. i believe other gals will love you more than i love you. smile =)
in a relationship, there shouldnt be any comparison. dun compare ur relationship with mine. the most i replied will be, 'that's ur prob. not mine'. i believe i deserve better. =)
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