Tuesday, May 16, 2006
i wasnt happy. not at all. so many things floating in my mind. im still thinking abt relationship, abt sch work, abt well, i dunno how im going to say it. those who know jus shhhh abt it. okay, it's abt darryl. -> ok i dun feel for him anymore but but but....i dunno how to end it. so useless.
recently i felt so stressed. stress till tt extend tt im losing slp. my period was late. everything wasnt going my way. stress till i dun even feel like living in this
hell place. really tired and sick.
today had cost accounting paper.
shit. im flunking it like
hell. believe mi. tts one prob. my period bully me today, causing me to feel so much pain. tt's women's life.
wth. i really feel like crying la.
fuck.quarrel with dear. okay, first thing first, i really dunno wad guys are thinking nowadays. i dun understand him at all. ok maybe this is my fault. i dun care i really dun care now. im sick n tired. im having so many probs and im gonna face it all alone, were u dere? no. u insulted mi using vugarity till odians hate u. till i forced myself to write here because i dun like them insulting u, asking mi to leave u once and for all, asking mi to slap u awake. c'mon, i've tried my best already. i really dunno where im going to go if everyone here is gonna insult u again. im tired, seriously tired.
u re always right and mi, will always be wrong.
forget it. everyone changes with time. it's up to u. i wun force u into this relationship, i know i can live without u because all these while u werent even with mi thru my worst day, u werent even with me when i was sick. all u do is, 'go see a doc, i'll pay for it'. tt's all u know.
i dun wanna bad-mouth u here, but who can i pour to? only my diary will listen silently and digest it. soon, everyone will be tired of mi complaining except this diary.
it's either now or never.
-wo zhi xu yao ni qing qing de fang kai wo de shou, gao shu wo ni li kai wo shi ying wei ni yao wo zao dao zhi ji de xin fu-
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