Thursday, May 25, 2006
dunno wad to say here. was feeling super duper down today. fact was i simply hates everything. pardon me for saying that ok. everything jus seems to irritate me.
was having sore throat when i woke up this morning. slowly leads to headache. no mood for taxation test either. during the taxation pp, forgot july gt how many days, damn! how to calculate. knn. nvm. ask tt stupid tommy yee, gave me a fucking ans, 'im not going to tell u this' so be it.
totally heck abt it la.
after test, called
dear, scolded me because i sounded
tulan. ok lo. my fault. dun need to shout all the way over the phone okay. dun even bother to give me face, yet im always giving in. at tt time, i hung his call. i stopped all communication with him. wad's the point?
2 consecutive days i cried on bus. so fucking hurt. at tt time, i took off our ring. tt's the end, i told myself. im not holding on anymore. im so
numbed right now. cried so hard when i reached home. i msged him, 'i reach home already. do tk care of yourself'. he called me, asked me, 'u dun wan to take care of me already ar'. i said dunno. i was so sick n tired now.
all this while, i was so wrong. i thought everything will go well if we seldom meet each other. i realised he's not the guy i wanted anymore. letting go is the best choice. if he still wants to hold on, there's nth i can do.
ignorance is a bliss. now i understand the meaning of this.
friends. haa. i duno wad to comment either. i miss secondary sch life whereby collen and pearly were with me when i cry, when i needed them the most. now if u were to ask me who are my best fren, i dun even know who to name.
anyway i've given my blogspot url to odians. heex. receieved 2 notes from xiaoyan and keck soon. =) thanks pal.
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