Friday, May 12, 2006
actually im not really happy abt my relationship. cannot tahan anymore. i dunno how strong, i dunno when is the day im gonna leave u. last night i couldnt sleep because im thinking hard. is it so difficult to maintain a long-lasting relationship or is it because u doesnt want to?
you know tears was with me thru'out. so terrible can. morning when i wake up, i tink of wad you say again. and again i cried. you know ur words were replaying in my mind?
-you wanted to beat me to death- i wun forget it no matter wad. i dunno how my god-dad is gonna deal with u if he finds out, i dunno how ur parents
esp ur papa will react if he knows it. i wish i can be stronger. i do appear strong but deep down, im weak. ok. im just too weak.
wadever it is, i hope i can forget it completely, which may takes some time. test are coming. cost accounting, tt's a killer subject for me because it's so complicated and they say our lecturer who's going to set the paper is very tricky. haix. i jus hope i can pass.
sch started for only 1 month and dere's test le. boring.
i feel so boring right now. dunno wad to do. dear's out with his dad. left me alone. done a lil facc, do until dunno how to do den i give up. haha. by the way facc test is next next tues. haix. shit man. im starting to panic for my taxation, cost accounting and financial accounting. i dunno how im going to survive this year. haix. regret not transfering to other course. brad is a clever soul. transfer to DBF. haha. so im the stupid one who still insist on staying in DIPLOMA IN ACCOUNTANCY. so stupid. no matter wad, i've to pull thru these 2 years. else eveything will be wasted. haix. =(
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