Saturday, April 30, 2011
tired tired tired...
im really f''ing tired of everything... i dunno who to talk to!
9:34 AM
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
yes, i guess i really wasnt myself afterall... T.T
somehow i spent half my day dreaming at work when it's my freaky PEAK period, i stammered on the phone with clients which resulted in me avoiding many phone calls tt have to be made...
what's wrong what's wrong??
im tired half the day, i dunno what im doing most of the time, and i used vulgarity... WORST of all, i completely lost my passion in work... =(
no incentives = no motivation = low performance...
i guess i rrly need some time away from every single one...
11:15 PM
Monday, April 04, 2011
i seriously need to take a break... sometimes i really dun feel like talking, it seems more like i am hiding some things from him, and worse still, i dunno what im trying to avoid... i refuse to admit the fact tt sth is not right, but i just feel like hiding.... i need a space to cry, i need a space to let time reveal my true self, my thoughts... yet i couldnt find a place to do so... at times i really hate myself...i hate my temper but... i just cant control myself anymore... tears can just flow, sometimes its really angry tears... i know i have been treating my colleague like shit, but still i tried controlling alr. yet she just nv fail to make me vent all over again... i just wished things didnt change tt drastically... i missed the old times... i missed my own laughter, i missed the times when there's always someone for me to talk to, to vent my frustration and then hug and tell me everything will be okay... is everything moving too fast?? shall we pause just for the moment??? yearning for someone for me to rely on... things will nv be the same... if only i get to spend as much time with my frens... i guess i can still be back to normal... i wish...i wish...
10:37 PM
