Sunday, October 17, 2010
can i think properly? i wish i can you know...life's been so bad, i wanted so much to break free. you know why, sometimes i really hate myself for not being able to be persistent. i wanted myself to get out of this r/s, but i cant. i love him too much, until i really dunno how to love myself more. in the past, i nv once treasured any relationship, to me, nth is impt except loving myself. i love myself more, respect myself more. but when i met him, when we were together, dignity, ego is no longer as impt as being with him.
tell me, is this love?
i know im hurting myself, yet i chose to hurt myself. i know deep down im not happy, but i still insist. why cant we show basic respect? why cant he show me basic respect. why must things always end up in such ugly state when everyone is watching us quarrel? cant u even save me some face? and why should i give u face?
should i really let go? can i bring myself to do it? 2 yrs plus...it's now or never. the longer things drag, the more hurt i'll feel.
i dun like to spout nonsence, not on fb, not to your friends and colleague. but many times u make me so angry tt i dun have anyone to turn to, and so asking ur friends and colleague to talk to you is the only choice. and the only thing they can say is to ask me to talk to you, to ask me to leave you etc.
i don't like your fiery temper, i don't like it when u are unhappy, i'll have to get out of ur vision, please, spare a thought. no matter how angry i gets, i dun use such words on you. have u ever wonder why no matter how good my temper is, in the end i am still the one being chased away by you.
对你再好，你也不会明白！对你再疼爱，结局还是一样！
你宁愿我打去也不肯打来，你要的是面子，而我呢？难道我就不能拥有面子，难道我就连一点尊重都不能有吗？
难道最后的疼爱也只能选择手放开吗？
1:13 PM
