Saturday, November 21, 2009
i don't have much reason to blog here. but...well, alls well, ends well...lol...
no link!
i've been moving on with life much better than i've expected. sometimes i do think of him, miss his existence. sometimes i just hate some parts of him. but afterall it's still love that overcomes everything.
dun ask me why, call me silly, call me dumb. i still love him, but i know i still have to move on.
my love for him...actually to be true, nv fade at all. we met up yesterday. i can still kiss him in public. he'll still peck my cheek in public. we can still hold hand we can still hug each other. but...seriously at the end of the day, what's the relationship between us...
we are still friends...
this is when im at a very confuse state till i really dunno what's the thing i should or should not do. i only know i still love him, so i wun stop showering him with love and concern. even though there's still guys trying to come into my life, no one can ever replace him in my heart. the love is too strong!
it's until when u lose something, you'll learn to cherish...
12:20 PM
Sunday, November 01, 2009
sometimes i just wish that they can be more understanding. but they failed to do so time and again...they make me feel so xinku. everyday i have to face 2 person's face, temper and stuff. im really really very tired. when im outside, i've to tolerate my bf's temper, his sort of split personality and stuff. at home i have to face my mum's temper, her nonsense and stuff...and now im bared from going to malaysia with my bf....and tell me what have i done!
21 years old, got my own thinking, got my own wants, and they just dun understand.
do you know why i always give my best in a relationship? because at the end of the day even when im no longer with the guy, i know i did the best and they are the one who dunno how to appreciate me. i have no regrets and i want no regrets in my life.
even though this current bf treats me in an unexpected way, i nv once said anything to them. nv once stop myself from treating the best...because when he's hurt, im hurt, when he's unhappy, im unhappy. how much do they understand me. sometimes i do wish my bf can understand me, can give in to me more. but i know it's impossible. and so i put in high hopes for my parents. afterall they look after me since im a baby, i thought even if no one, no friends understand, THEY WILL. but what i got was nth but lots and lots of misunderstanding and accusation...
it's just so hard isnt it....
11:00 PM
