Saturday, November 29, 2008
he thinks i need to control my temper.
not tt i didnt. i did. just maybe....well... difficult. im used to family members giving in to my temper, ex boos giving in to my temper. but still i will change for his sake.
was happy yesterday because we didnt quarrel. spent the day sleeping and then him doing nail polish for me but well, it was gone after i woke up cause i think im too chor lor...thus he gt no choice but to remove it for me.
home-cook maggie by him is the best =)
and off we head to fareast and bugis.
i cant wait to see him later.
5:07 PM
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
他又把我赶走了。。。不会回去了，这也是他最后一次赶我走了。。。也是最后一次帮他做工了。。。我不可能带着愉快的心情。。。当他和顾客那么近距离，当顾客要去学校他都知道。。。
我不能接受。。。这是我的错。。。我知道当初和他在一起，我就必须带着一个必须和别人供私的想法。。。但是我发现我做不到。。。所以没有资格再把他留下了。。。
有时真的很希望可以离开这里。。。现在连我爸爸都说不要我了。。。问我过了年可以嫁出去就嫁出去。。。不过吵架是不可以回来因为他怕已经没有能力养我了！听了，是很开心。。。因为我真的想嫁给他，可是到最后。。。我们放弃了。。。
他的要求我做不到。。。为什么我必须去信任他，而他呢。。。叫我和他交换电话来用。。。我没有做对不起他的事，所以没有必要交换电话。。。就算他真的拿了我的电话来用，我也不怕。。。只是觉得没有必要。。。也就因为‘信任’他选择了分手。。。
就让他如愿以偿。。。之前我把他留住了，求过了，哭过了。。。他的心里在想着谁。。。我不知道。。。也不想知道了。。。因为不是我。。。试着打，他不听也不回。。。我想着应该是他想要的。。。
我说了。。。他的顾客永远都是最幸福的。。。
5:57 PM
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
原来我都错了！这一切都是个错误。。。
他说了一句: “ 以后不要再看我的电话了！”
不看了，不碰了！
你就有资格那我的电话，你就有资格把里面的信息删除掉。。。而我只是看你的通话记录。。。
好多事情你都说没有！没有和我大声，没有骂我。。。
一切都是我的错。。。你都是对的。。。对不起！
梦远了，说好的幸福也没有了。。。
6:27 PM
Monday, November 24, 2008
感觉好像疏远了。。。那种爱的感觉不再深了。。。也许我真的不能做一个好的女朋友！做不到那个能让你满意的女朋友。。。
1:03 PM
Saturday, November 22, 2008
im getting lazier to blog as time goes by...many unhappiness, many unsaid words...
i love him. simply love him. but sometimes when i recall of the way he talk to me, it hurts so much deep down.
whenever he gets busy, i felt like i've lose him...w/o him msg-ing with me, w/o him by my side. i feel so uneasy. its like his customer gets to chat with him, etc etc...
=(
every friday i wish i have 48 hrs with him...time just passes so quickly. so fast till i just want to spend the entire day being with him and not going anywhere.
everytime when we quarrel, i just hate to see his angry face. i dun mind doing anything, even giving him a peck in front of customers. just to see him smile.
i admit sometimes im very hot-tempered. but sometimes i just dun like the way he do things.
argh! he just makes me go completely crazy for him. fell so deeply in love with him.
i just want a happy future being with him.
2:50 PM
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
hmmm...well, tml is my first pbf test. it's just test, not some exams. but the prob is...haix...dunno his expectation. i know what qns is coming out...what i fear is that he'll change the qns la.
was watching the show hosted by quan yi feng. they talked abt why guys will betray their wife why guys will have mistress...somehow makes me fear...makes me so afraid of marriage.
sorry baby...sorry for making you give me so many assurance yet still cannot comfort me.
anyway baby cut his hair short.
terence started contacting me. it's getting abit irritating...
11:23 PM
Saturday, November 08, 2008
今天的你是怎样对我，以后的我就是这样对回你！
我不会多说，也不会再把不开心的事告诉你。。。也不会因为不开心而写在这里。。。今天将会是最后一次。。。
我也不会因为你的不开心，改变我自己的生活。。。该改的我会改，不该改的我不会改！就是那么简单!
为什么不想跟你回。。。很简单的理由，就是每次你回去他们都会问你：‘一日游啊 ！’。。。是我害到你的妹妹的头发弄的不直，是我害到你陪不到你的妈妈，是我害到你那么累！到时他们一定会很讨厌我的。。。虽然你说过就算他们这样说，不过你会告诉他们因为你只有一天假！我感觉得到你的家人还是最重要的。。。我们到时是否会在一起还是个迷。。。所以我告诉自己就算你没有把我放在第一也是无所谓的。。。（读好，我没有说你家人的坏话，不要因为一个批评而来骂我）
好想念我的朋友们！！！
6:29 PM
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
sometimes i just get so fed up when my bro just dun bother and contribute much to this family. just take for example...earning like near to a thousand for his ns every month. he neither give my parents money nor pay for his phone bills which always cost like 60 to 70 per month. whenever he comes back from ns, he'll sit in front of the computer, play and play non-stop...else is crunchyrolling non-stop. other than that, he'll go out with his friends or stay over at his gf's place.
just as i made a slight mistake with my dad's compensation objection thingy...and they blames it entirely on me. because every single thing was done by me...they felt tt i should be held responsible. yet the prob is...it's unfair. everyone makes mistake. but i did try my best and i said ' i thought' ...
and i started to fight back...
and my dad said: 'look at ur bro, when he come home, he'll hide in his room, when i come home from work, he's out with friends/gf. the next day when i left for work, he's not even home yet. i wan to say one sentence to him also difficult. how to ask him to help me. '
and after being together with his gf, he's become very stingy.
i dunno what he's spending on. but once he complain tt his ns pay is not enough for him to spend. hello...1 thousand leh. not 1 hundred. what are u spending on?
planning a trip to aust and genting. and so this give u the reason not to pay for ur hp bills? and not bothering abt the financial difficulties in our family? because of this fucking bad crisis...i hav to worry tt dad might be getting retrench because his salary is considered high in the co. and so i took up 2 students... just wry-ing tt anything bad might happen and life will be so difficult...because we are too used to this lifestyle. yet ... i thought u will be much more matured...
guess i was wrong all along. because in ur life only ur gf n ur friends exist. this hse seems more like a hotel to u, right?
11:35 PM
