Saturday, March 29, 2008

alright, working life in IRAS was still okay except for some cases whereby taxpayer are really horrigible.

just get this straight:
1. i dun like too many question
2. dun speak loudly to me
3. dun stress me
4. dun lie

it's always so tired after work. i wonder how im going to cope when sch starts. yawn!

oh ya, i just came back from malaysia after a dinner.

time for bed. nights =)

11:44 PM

Monday, March 24, 2008

shall update a lil stuff here. if not this place is gonna get abandon. haha.

tml will be starting work at iras. so BORING! haha. i cant even get my butt off my house. i haven buy concession pass, i haven get myself a bottle. there's so many things i haven done.

i swear once i finish blogging here, i'll go buy a bottle at guardian, go pack the stuff needed at iras and to go to toilet to shit. haven shit since morning.

hahaha.

and now im ending this post. bye folks.

1:53 PM

Friday, March 21, 2008

it was a very scary incident. and if i were to suddenly depart from this world, this will be the main cause.

can u imagine there's a centipede hiding under my t-shirt? it's gross isnt it. still nvm, it drop along my curve and i thought sth drop down, and when i finally saw what came out of my shirt and onto my pants, i realise it's a centipede.

i was on the phone with him when the incident occur.

me: ahhh, there's a centipede in my clothes

him: remove it la. how come will be inside ur clothes?

me: how i know.

him: aiya, u later than call me la. u go make that centipede first.

okay, so i was such a rubbish to him. instead of asking me if i got bitten by it, he ask me to settle the centipede first. sometimes i really dun wan to think of this r/s. like i've mention earlier, i'll rather be alone like this. there's no diff.

his friend proposed to his girlfriend on the singapore flyers. it's so romantic. actually we knew what was going on. den when they asked us abt our wish, he said: i wan to be able to look after my girlfriend forever, no matter what, i'll always be with her to protect her.

lovely and romantic.

and now, im waiting for his call. he's chatting with his friend under his hse. to think that i have such a selfish boyfriend who didnt even bother abt me waiting for his call. great!

some were asking when we are getting married. his friends in fact. but seriously if they were to ask me, i'll say i've not made my decision. not because i dun love him, it's because i love him more than he love me.

i'll have to persuade and psycho my dad to move out of this hell flat. it's either ants or centipedes that makes me and my mum go berserk. he's nv met before but we have met and kill a few centipedes on rainy days.

this flat is hell.

12:27 AM

Sunday, March 16, 2008

well, i do not have to repeat again. but please, let the past be the past. just let it lay as it is. in the past, now, future, everything will still be the same.

i got really heaty nowadays. my ulcer lasted for freaking 7 days. my lower gum hurts like hell. there's ulcer near my tongue, there's ulcer at my throat. it causes pain whenever i eat. i cant bite my food freely, i have to bite it with care. like that, i think i'll rather swallow porridge. but still, i cant resist the temptation of dove amicelli lying helplessly on my study table.

i need herbal tea badly. and im washing my mouth with salt water. but the pain will only go away for awhile. just like 10mins only. after that, it'll haunt me again. drink water also pain. i cant eat biscuit. and the only thing i ate for lunch was plain gardenia bread.

sobs.

when will it heal???

2:00 PM

Friday, March 14, 2008

i seriously need to be on diet. my weight increase by 2kg when i last weigh myself. but because i have high metabolism rate, i gets hungry very easily. so i've no choice but to eat and eat. and now because of my ignorance, my tummy is getting bigger. hell !!!

was suppose to be watching romantic princess, but since my god-sis and god-bro are at their home now, it's so boring to watch it alone. and i went ahead to buffer apartment 1303. watching it in the afternn seems okay, but watching it at night...grrr...i might have nightmares. haha.

diet diet...here i come....

my plans for dieting will be:

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firstly: strictly no snacks allowed after a heavy meal

secondly: no lunch for me everyday until my weight decrease

thirdly: do more sit-up

fourth: no mcflurry for me for 1 week (this is kinda hard, i might not be able to resist)

fifth: drink more water so can shit those unnecessary things out. (hahahaha)

i cant promise this can be done. but for now, this is the only thing i can do.

11:52 PM

Thursday, March 13, 2008

i've gotten my job at IRAS.

and surprisingly, the dress code is not sth formal but just presentable. so jeans is allowed. =)

nth much to update. previously this diary is read by those fucker, but now, they dun even know the url. reason being: i cant bother to tell them. i dun treat them as friends.

and so yeah, nth much to write here. whatever should be said will be written in opendiary.

will still blog here but i will not visit as often.

lalala.

6:49 PM

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

the next few days will be so boring for me. because there's no work, there's no activities for me.

why no work? because the boss didnt bother to ask if i wanted to work. because he feel that we cant reach the target he set. unlike A, who will report to him when she reach the target. they say she will no matter what, reach the target they set. it makes it sounds like we didnt bother to put in effort in work. like we didnt bother to get more customers. like we didnt get very pissed when there's no customer. well, if he think that we are lidat, then there's really nth i can say. if he think that business should be that good in the morning, then he should really come down and take a look instead.

well, maybe like what they say: life's unfair. whatever effort u put in, it will nv be recognise.

that's why they say, a guy thinks with their dick.

i went to malaysia with my parents and aunt today. to visit my uncle's wife who just gave birth to a baby girl i few days ago. haha.

to think that i've such a fake friend. i've been tolerating for so long. it's like she already got the job yet she lied that it was a last min one. haha. who will give such last min stuff.

anyway i've just deleted them off my contacts. deleted them from my phone. i dun wan such friend.

i guess i'll just end here.

11:15 PM

Monday, March 10, 2008

ok, im back.

staying over at his place. and then the second night, we quarrel. but it was only a minor thing. so i didnt brood over it much.

sometimes i just dunno how to trust him. he clearly knows that i hate ppl lying to me, yet, he still prefers to lie to me and until i found out the truth, he got no choice but to admit. it's all because of his neighbour's maid that make us quarrel over and over again.

i dunno maid is hired to do housework or to come to singapore to find a guy to settle down. everytime when we walk past, i can see the maid smiling happily to my boyfriend. her eyes followed him wherever he walks. he always pass by their house. he claim he doesnt smile or look at the maid, but who knows. i always walk in front, and he'll walk behind me.

i've tried many ways to trust him, but no way. i cant do that anymore. pretending that nth happen between the two of them? i cant seriously.

friday night, we went out for dinner at secret receipe. it's kinda hard for us to find a day to sit down without much worries, to have dinner together.

saturday i washed his forever dirty toilets for him while he is at work and after that get prepared to meet pearly to go SIM. after tt met up with shervonne at boon lay and go pioneer mall. dinner was at delifrance.

sunday morning, still unsatisfied with the cleaning of the toilet, so i clean up the dirty place again and then took a bath. was still thinking of walking to pioneer mall to get papers and breakfast. but then ying xing called me to go down for work because collen's alone. so work for 3 hours and come back again. dine at balithai.

there's nth much to talk abt because i dun wan to talk abt this tiring relationship. dunno to give up or not. but seriously speaking, im too tired to handle.

many instances whereby i wanted to give up, but because i cant bear to, i stayed, put up with his nonsence and stuff.

i know ppl will start saying: 'not happy just break lo, it's not like u are married to him already or what. it's whether u want to break anot'

haha. but i'll say u're stupid. relationship is not sth whereby u want to break means break. how much i've put into this relationship can never be measured. because i still need him, because i still love him,tt's why i dun wan to put this relationship to an end.

i've stop grumbling to my friends abt how bad he is because i find tt it's pointless. how long can they listen.

may be meeting shevronne and cindy any day this week. i love gossiping with them, i love their presence, i love the way they joke. i love the way they give me solutions to probs and i just simply love the way they are. we can joke till scold each other but is only play play only la. haha.

shall continue chatting with sean and go for lunch. bb.

11:13 AM

Friday, March 07, 2008

they have this sunday times photographer who came. ice cream vs yogurt. whatever it is la. frolick's yogurt will be published in the sunday times.

and again, there's nth to complain but my poor toes. first time doing 3rd shift. which was abit boring la. collen came to accompany me for dinner. but dinner was a rush one. she bought dinner over and i was like juggling with my dinner and cashiering. and my back hit the dumb cashbox twice. was like so painful la.

after that, gossip abit. abt sth which is like...well...i dunno what to say la. earlier on, ive heard rumours abt that, and then at night, it seems to become true. not rumours but fact. haha. but if our gossipping is gonna make u upset or hate us, then be it la. u are old enough to think. i suppose so. if u are not, then too bad.

i took a cab back. and collen took another cab back. both are going towards jurong west. but different route.my fucked up driver took a longer route... at first i was thinking, why isnt collen's driver following behind. but then i just put the thought behind. and then i realise my driver took a longer route. dumb ass!

ya, 2 hours pay gone. haha.it's $12.40.

there was time whereby i really feel like taking a nap in the cab, but then im not familiar with the route, so better not. anyway im home right now. so boringly typing this entry.

my bro will be flying to thai tml. and i dunno if my dad is sending him over.

i wun be home from tml till sunday.

meeting pearly on saturday.

yawn!

12:00 AM

Thursday, March 06, 2008

im getting bored. i dunno what to do at this time. because i woke up way too early. my work will start at 3pm, i'll leave hse at 2pm. so i've 4 more hours to rot.

chatted with ah lian ytd and realise that SIM may not accept u even if u have the money to study. but because many have the idea that as long as u got the $$, private uni will accept. this is what pearly told me too. will see how it goes. if im not accepted, then i'll probably work in either IRAS or my senior's firm.

i dun like cold weathers. but i dun like hot weathers too. contradicting la.

i miss gossip session with shevronne. haha. and i've yet to meet the girls who are back from thai thai thai. only tan ah ching. lol.

okay la, shall go crunchy to see if there's any nice show to watch.

bye~

10:01 AM

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

i was so tired after work. the covered shoes was giving me some problems. my toe hurts like mad. i unwillingly trim and cut my toe nails for one week already. did manicure by myself and the covered shoes wasnt cooperating and it destroys like 60% of the nail art.

met up with ching for dinner at thai express. and the suppose to be tom yum but looks like some bland chicken soup turns out great but too spicy for me. hee.

it seems like it doesn't exist. but if these are going to make our relationship better....i dunno what i wanna say. i dun like ur nasty words. i dun like when u makes me feel like such a shit.

and i did something very carelessly today. i dunno how yingxing's phone drop, it just hits the floor hard. and i felt very guilty because though the phone is still working, but there's a big scratch there. and i was corrected by him: should be pronounce as 'frolick yogurt' and not 'frolick yogurts' but who will actually bothers. hahaha.

pimples breakout. argh!

11:10 PM

Monday, March 03, 2008

sales wasnt that good in the morning. probably because of the shooting of frolick's yogurt outside. hopefully the sales will get better else....(you'll know what i wanna say)

i didnt sleep much last night. still crying and forcing myself to sleep at 2am. freaking 2am! he's definately sound asleep but not me. i dunno why we cant be like any other couples. sweet loving forgiving and cute. we arent. we cant.

i woke up with a swollen eyes and i did all means to make it looks normal. by putting eye drops every now and then.

after work, came home straightaway. was very very cold. shivering like mad because my area was pouring. the feeling of hunger and cold. so pathetic. hahaha. but then i treated my stomach with cakes and cookies when i got home. without bathing etc. who cares abt cleaniness with an empty stomach. haha.

tan ah ching, i hope to see u tml. heex.

girlies are all back from their thailand trip. i hope i was there too. they seems to have so much fun.

and i PASSED my basic theory. hee. when i submit the mcq, my heart was thumping hard. because i thought i will fail. because i didnt study finish and somemore tt day was rainy day. feel more like sleeping instead.

whatever it is, we can start applying for PDL.

they says that IRAS job is more or less confirm. so dun need wait for their calls. that will be 25th march to 18 april. woots~

bb.

4:51 PM

Sunday, March 02, 2008

we broke up. he said this to me: 'u dun be my girlfriend la'

there's nth i can say, nth i can reply.

i kept quiet and leave.

9:52 PM