Friday, February 29, 2008
work was fine. WE MADE IT! 82 customer from 11am to 3pm. 82 does not include those customer who bought more than 1 cup. but well, no one knows. we'll still be blame for bad sales.
anyway im still working on mon tues and thurs.
am chatting with collen right now and she was telling me that she feels that the boss is like taking ppl like substitutes. i mean is not 'like', it 'is' la. well, dunno la, just feel that there's a lot of favortism and biase-ness in frolicks. ppl like mel and val gets all the attention because they are pretty. unlike ppl like us who's like a rotten flowers.
anw both of us will be quitting after next week.
for collen, she says because he wants her to work during her holidays. as for me, because next week there's still empty slots, that's why he ask me to work. these are what collen says to me la. haha.
whatever it is, we arent happy. no point to continue.
that freak boss said that other boss commented that im still not talkative enough but im hardworking. but who knows if it's true. i've customer who actually commented that my shouting caught his attention and that made him came forward to buy.
argh! forget it. saying goodbye to frolick after next week. after i've completed my shift. saying goodbye to the rotten flowers job.
im having basic theory tml. wish me luck because i haven complete studying.
11:49 PM
Thursday, February 28, 2008
working at frolicks for the 3rd day. tml will be the fourth and last day. because i only filled up my schedule until tml and he didnt ask me to fill up anymore. i didnt have the jab too, so what's the point of staying. is like every single soul have had a jab except me.
my father was against me for that. he keeps implying tt i should get an account job which was like c'mon, no one will wanna hire me for 2 months. afterall, it's "face" they want. and my mum friends keep telling her to let me study and work part-time.
it's not only my parents tt are controlling my life, it's their friend too. sometimes i really hope they can mind their own business.
today is suppose to be dad's birthday. but im such an unfilial daughter. i forgot his birthday and both of us quarrelled over part time jobs. but seriously i dun think im in the wrong. im working ar frolicks because i dun like slacking at home, eat sleep play. it'll make me feel so useless. at least earn some money so i can buy things i like etc. but because of this quarrelling, it makes the job sound like some prostitute and i seriously dun feel like working anymore. because im only approved by them if i find an office job. but dun u think it'll be more relax working lidat. in office, there's deadlines to meet, there's heavy workload etc. haix.
im getting abit fed up with iras. i've waited for their calls for quite sometime. but if they dun call by tml, i guess im just going to forget abt it.
shit, there's still basic theory on saturday. this time round, no more peeping. which means dead for me lo.
kkz, bye.
11:45 PM
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
i've gotten my result. not very satisfied but im happy that i manage to score an A for my AFA. thank god. at least time spent on studying AFA is not wasted. hahaha.
but for some subjects, it's quite a disappointment and i believe gems is being pulled down because of some group members. well, anw since results are out, i should be satisfied instead of blabbering nonstop. but still my gpa cant jump up much. been pulled down by previous results. boo!
hate talking to my parents. because they just dun understand how the internet works, how the blogger works and they keep questioning dumb dumb stuff which i seriously have a hard time explaining. like what has finding someone's blog got to do with their password? keep questioning nonstop and then when i got fed up, they start saying why i cant explain to them nicely. like WHAT THE FUCK. i've already explained, dun understand just shut up.
i dun like unreasonable ppl. damn it.
today's my off day.
cruise was fun. eat and eat and eat. 5 to 6 meals per day. haha. im growing fat!! haha.
shall update more if i have the time.
10:44 AM
Friday, February 22, 2008
im waiting for time to pass. for the lunch with my bf and then cruise at night. i've a craving for kfc. heex. but then imagine on monday, i've to start work. what if i carries a bulgy stomach to work. yucks!!! hahaha.
i won 4d on wednesday. only 10 bucks la. and then my bro called me ytd to ask me to help him buy toto. and guess what.....
he manage to win 20 bucks from it. lucky hor??? i bought 3 tickets at 2 bucks each, also dun have money take. humph!!! they took away my luck.
no, it's ok, it's ok. my bro bought a PSP in BLACK???? and then he said his friend are going to help him charge and transfer games into it and then the PSP will have a chance to take the cruise with us. hee. hahahaha!!
if only i got the win tt toto. i'll carry and smile and die in the coffin while sleeping. hahahaha. crazy crazy.
no, if i were to strike that toto, i'll not work. hahha. dreamon! im dreaming....
alright shall update when im back.
10:22 AM
Thursday, February 21, 2008
i've collected the pass to the cruise tmr.
sometimes i dunno why, i keep thinking and thinking. and i kept questioning him. i know im selfish but it cant be help. which girl isnt?
i feel insecure.
or maybe because too much love was put in.
i dun wan to think anymore.
bb.
1:52 PM
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
i've applied for SIM bachelor of science in accounting and finance. dun ask me why SIM because i dunno why too. haha. somemore ACCA is considered tough for me, so i've decided to take SIM instead. anyway went down with pearly and kaishi.
pearly sms me early in the morning. hahaha. then i called her to ask her abt rmit and uol thing. and she explained it to me with patience. i thank her for that.
after registering, i went to town with pearly. shopped at far east which have already caused a big hole in my pocket. imagine: 58+24+30+26....accumulate for me then!
saw jianyi working at staplewear at fareast. and i realise another shop similar to blossomz are selling very pretty dress. oh man! luckily i didnt spend money at tt shop.
then we took a train home to realise tt my heels have cause a cut across my toe. and because the cut is quite big, i've to put on a plaster. imagine, it's only when i reach home den i realise the cut.
2 tops, 2 bottom, 1 covered shoes, 1 bag and lastly, collen's present.
shall end here then. bb.
6:39 PM
Monday, February 18, 2008
i've complained enough at opendiary. so coming to here, i've absolutely nothing much to talk about.
i went for an interview at holland village at a yoghurt stall. i bet the boss was reluctant to hire me because his first impression of me was : too shy!
i admit im shy. it's only during the first meeting. after tt im fine with everything. but then well, i dunno. he keeps reminding me that i have to : call out for customers. but seriously i think they can hardly cover any cost. considering 2 staff working, each earns 6 bucks per hour. sometimes if there's no customer, how to earn? rental and cost for the yoghurt?? no, i've no confidence this stall can remain for a long time.
but anyway he hired me and let me try out for 1 week. which is on the monday after i come back from cruise. working 2 shift in 1 day. from 11am to 7pm. anyone who's free, please patronise. hahaha. i doubt there will be any.
a lil regret going for the interview because only bright colours clothes can be worn. collen ask me to wear tank tops instead.
i hate it. because i prefer BLACK. hahahaha.
no, i'll work for 1 week and after tt i'll sack the boss. wahahaha.
my plan!
shall turn in early. im meeting pearly tml.
11:19 PM
Sunday, February 17, 2008
i swear i can never tolerate the boredom and slacking happily at home.
i went to jobstreet to look for jobs. initially i wanted to send my resume to a job located at tuas, but then...thinking of tt IRAS job, i decided to 'forget abt it'. it's frustrating. when u get to find a job tt requires no experience but then u are being held up at IRAS, waiting for their phone calls, i tell u, u'll hate the feeling.
im still waiting u know. lecs says they will call at the end of this week, but it's already sunday. no phone calls.
saturday, sunday...pass by so fast. i thought it's only saturday. so i've to wait till wednesday to meet my boyfriend. seems so long because i got nth to do at home. argh!!!
i've helped out with some small cookings, help with some kitchen stuff like cutting veges etc.
and then i realised my fingers stink. hahahaha.
tuesday will be meeting pearly to register for SIM. haix. still must spend money again. u see la. in spore all talk abt money money one.
shall end here. yawn!
11:59 PM
Saturday, February 16, 2008
i seriously hate staying at home, doing nth besides computer computer and computer. not only does it increase the utility bill, but i also have no income. and so i asked my mum to buy straits time. -> classified.
most of the job needs experience. some are for fresh graduates but not very appealing. what i hate abt is, if every job needs experience of 1-3 yrs etc, then fresh graduates will remain jobless. haix.
they says ignorance is a bliss. i agree with it. sometimes i wish i didnt hear, i wish i didnt know anything. yet time and again, god gave me the chance to chance upon such incident. so much so that i hate it, and i refuse to accept colleague is jus colleague.
and this is what i told him in a fit of anger: 'whatever u can do to me behind my back, i can do it to you too. it's whether i want a not'
so i was very unhappy throughout the whole night. but then i have to pretend nth happens. fake right.
and now he's complaining tt the gold necklace have very sharp edges and so he wants to change it next month. and im so fucking angry with him because initially when i commented tt the necklace will cut his neck, he dun believe me. and now after a few days, he wanted to change it. so my gift for him can be change as and when he like. he dun even have respect for me. and then should i request to dispose the necklace he bought for me previously??? im not working. every dollars and cents in my bank is from my previous job which was like 3 yrs ago. i save here and there for ur birthday present and now, say change means change. u never think how tt 250 means to me.
upset.
dumb.
i really hate it when i have the heart to buy the present but they refuse to accept it. take for example my dad. i bought him a wallet for ard 70+ dollars. end up, he refuse to use it and even offered to my bro when he loses his.
it's all plain useless. pissed me off.
i think next time i should save up myself and pamper myself with branded stuff instead of buying branded stuff for ppl who wun appreciate.
argh!
i hate this feeling. it sucks.
12:20 AM
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
i feel so tired! yawn yawn yawn.
i spent alot today. damages are 250 for gold necklace, 42.80 for swensen cake, 10 bucks on food.
his bro gave him 300 to change his gold necklace and then he spent tt 50 bucks resulting in me having to chip in another 50. sobx.
but then i can have peace for 1 yr. last yr he used to nag at me for not buying anything for him during special occasion. humph.
gotta turn in early. tml got test. argh!!!
11:21 PM
Monday, February 11, 2008
i spent my whole day doing nth accept visiting ppl and then eat sleep roar.
went to dover with my boyfriend to visit his granny. and then while we are about to leave the carpark, tadaa~ i saw MR CALEB LYE with DAVID TAN. at first i was telling my boyfriend, 'hey, my lecturer bought a car like this' and then the next moment, mr tan look out of the window and then....it's mr caleb lye's car. can straight away tell him, 'this is my lecturer's car.' hahaha. then after that, my boyfriend drove up the carpark.
i haven study for wednesday test. ching ar, please study. because wo kao ni le. hahahaha.
alright shall end here. bb.
9:22 PM
Saturday, February 09, 2008
woo~ im back from malaysia. big big yawn!!! didnt get enough sleep. my parents separate me and my boyfriend. sobx... we couldnt sleep together. sometimes i think being too conservative isnt good at all. c'mon, if we are going to do such thing, we would have done so earlier liao.
nvm abt that.
my bf and i went to watch sunset. he drove motor over to the beach. heex. i love the fresh air over there. especially in the morning. unlike in spore, so stuffy. anyway spore is much safer la. haha. cant believe i went out without taking wallet, money, phone etc. so unlike me. haha.
this yr new year, ang pow money not much. so freaking unfair can! my father gave their child each 30 ringgit. they gave us only 20 ringgit. they got 3 to 4 children, we only 2 to 3. UNFAIR. somemore they boss, set up own business one. argh!!!! £%$&*~
life in malaysia is, eat, play, sleep, eat play sleep. neverending process. hahaha. and so dun need to see one, i confirm gain weight one. haha.
i miss studying.
haix. still gotta go down to bbdc on wednesday. can i let out a big big yawn!!!!!
alright, shall end here.bb.
10:39 PM
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
got quite abit upset. very irritated. unhappy. fucked up.
not in a good mood.
family matters. now i dun even know if my parents are going to malaysia tml. endless conflicts.
quarrel with my boyfriend. i get very irritated with him because these few days, he kept venting his fucking temper on me when i didnt do anything. ppl ard keeps looking at us. even my primary school friends. c'mon, ive been staying here for 15-16 years. u've already thrown my face, make everyone know how u fuckingly treat me.
my aunt is undergoing a minor operation today because of uterus. doctor suspect her uterus got prob. first is my younger aunt who got to remove the whole uterus. now is my elder aunt. it makes me fear even more. at a young age, diagnois with cysts. vagina somehow got infected. i dun even dare to imagine how my life will be. woman without uterus. must as well go be a man. i inherited most of the genes from my paternal side. so does tt also means i'll follow their path.
very happy go lucky kind. i've tried to put all these behind. yet, there's still a limit. limit to everything.
life's so fragile. if only he can treasure the time spent together. but right now, i know he cant be because there's more to this relationship.
(if you got what i mean, clever, if u dun't, i dun find it a need to explain)
9:13 AM
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
i dunno what i should update about.
abt my shopping spree or dinner or going to boon keng or b*d*
alright. shall proceed on to shopping spree then! tt seems to be the happiest topic besides dinner.
bought loreal eye and lip make up remover because the loreal eye make up i bought previously refused to wash away the waterproof mascara and then bought maybelline eye liner.
after these headed to somewhere funny.
then go over to boon keng.
den come back liao go shopping with my bf.
at body shop, i bought their concealer which have already changed. and then proceed to faceshop to get liquid foundation and loose powder.
no no i dun wanna count how much i spent. it's a bomb bomb bomb.
the bonus my parents gave to me cant cover my expenses today.
i received an ang pow already. inside got 50 dollars. with the 100 my parents gave, just enough to cover the bag i bought. not including normal make-up expenses. but c'mon, how often do i spend on make-up. kan kai yi dian ba! hahahah.
angry with my dad over some issues. somehow i find him getting very very naggy nowadays. very very narrow minded. very unreasonable. stingy. and im getting abit irritated. sometimes i really feel like scolding him but out of respect, i held myself.
reunion dinner at jurong east boon lay raja. not very nice but not very bad too. hahaha.
alright, i dunno what i should say liao.
somethings is better left unsaid hor ching. hahahah!!!
12:16 AM
Sunday, February 03, 2008
thanks to seelian for making the video of frens. but the sending procedure is too slow. 2 hrs going to 3hrs. i waited until im so tired so i left the laptop switched on while i sleep. hahahaha.
accompanied my mother to the market. not in a very good mood because i feel very tired somemore market got a lot of ppl. see liao also sian 1/2. haha.
but now back home le, feel much better.
gotta settle the cruise one. haven send the passport expiry date to tt lady.
haix....
going out in search of shoes later. bye.
shall update at night if i got nth to do.
9:46 AM
Saturday, February 02, 2008
it has never come across my mind that i have to do such thing. i get very very upset and disappointed in u. respect is all i ask for.
okay, his brother helped him buy bak gua for my family. and his bro places it on the living room table. when i was about to go home, i didnt want to take the bak gua home because it's like my bf didnt even bother to take for me. and then later, he demand that i go take from the table instead without a proper paper bag.
all the way down, he didnt bother to hold it for me. 1kg of bak gua. haa. when i want him to help, he wun help. when im carrying light weights, he want to hold for me.
every saturday, he sleeps my time away. tt's the reason why i flare up at him. how can it be possible that whenever we meet, he wants to sleep and sleep and sleep? it's like wasting my time going over there to WATCH HIM SLEEP? den i jolly well stay at home to accompany my mum.
ive never ever expect u to accompany me out. because normally i shop alone, window shop alone, eat alone, think alone, cry alone, watch drama series alone, study alone, vent my anger alone. please please spare a thought for me. because of u, im left with no friends already. what more do you want? i cant even find someone to talk. i cant even find a shopping partner. i cant even find a friend to meet up for a cup of coffee. take it as a pleading. i have already gave up everything in my life for you.
enough of venting.
cruise will be on 22 feb to 24 feb. i didnt know still have to pay for the fuel charge. liew. book another room and total cost is 916. which i think is very not worth lo.
22 feb is collen's birthday. this time round i MUST get a present for her because i owe her a lot of present already. this sweet girl nv fails to buy present for me even after we graduate.
alright. going to watch my 18 jin bu jin. if not very bad sia. jl pass it to me for so long le, im still at the 2nd episode. hahahaha.
10:42 PM
Friday, February 01, 2008
why would we drift so far apart? ask urself not me. the problem doesnt lies with me. c'mon, 5 yrs already. even when " call u, u dun even wan to talk much to her. so what's all these abt?
lost of topic, lost of contact. maybe the surface shows the opposite. deep down we were cold hard strangers. i dun like it when u think u rule the world. only talking to ppl when u are down, abadoning every single living things ard.
i hereby announce i dun like it.
tt's been the reason why i refuse to initiate conversation. tt's the reason why after changing my blog addie, u werent been notified even till now.
because we lack of common topic, we lack of conversation. we have basically nth to talk abt. let's just forget these 5 yrs or let's put it easier, 2 yrs of friendship.
" will still remain but not us.
argh!!....
im so tired. to even believe tt im studying for evaluation test while typing this.
im not emo.
the truth will remain the truth. the colours nv fade.
the fall of the friendship will means the end of the 2 or 5 yrs contract. u name it.
super duper SIAN. hahahaha.
11:41 PM
