Sunday, December 30, 2007
watch ghost train last night. until dunno what time.
after that i went to buy my facial product and clothes with my mum. ordered one mp heels. total damage: facial product=70, clothes=70, mp heels deposit of 20.
mum paid 50 for me.
after that went to my granny's place. my cute lil cousin is getting chubby. i love carrying her although can be quite heavy. but she's CUTE.
after that reached home ard 2 plus bath already jiu go out le.
it's so tiring.
i haven done my tutorial. haven start on understanding hedging. haven start on MACC. and now it's a say hi to the last 2 weeks of school.
i guess i'll miss a lot of things.
food
lecturers
friends
squeezing in the lift
lectures
projects
exams
sobs.
there will be a bbq for cy staff. i dunno if i wanna go because thinking of the transport back home, can be very erm...haha. not convenient. go got ppl drive, come back dunno got ppl wanna drive anot. so conclusion is, spend the time of proj la. hahahaha.
you know action speaks louder than words.
a few weeks ago b4 holiday she promised 'this'. but the holiday ending liao, she forget that 'this' .
staying over tml. yeah!!!
10:49 PM
Saturday, December 29, 2007
i hate running nose and sore throat. too many chocs consumed but too lil water taken in. heatiness and pimples. but i cant resist. dove amicelli, toblerone and ferrero rocher temptation. argh!! maybe i should stay away from home for some time.
xxl crispy chicken, ice-cream, coffee cake. very nice. but contribute to the worsening of my sickness. haha.
but many many thanks to luo han guo herbal tea. now my sore throat is so much better. my flu had bid goodbye due to enough sleep. but the sorching sun gives me headache.
i love my life as it is now. but how long can everything last? happiness nv last.
i hate my eyebags. cant be helped anymore.
yawn!!!
11:12 PM
Friday, December 28, 2007
DAMN PISSED WITH HER.
I FUCKING-LY HATES HER TO THE CORE!
11:54 PM
was so tired last night. i slept at 2 plus am. because i reach home at 2plus. initially i dun wanna bath, but then thinking of all those things i've done, i think after bathing can sleep better. hahaha.
i went for those temple dinner ytd. after that i helped my father's friend keep some of the things, and one butch n guy was guessing my age. no no, they didnt ask me because when they wanted to ask me, i quickly walk away. before they could say 'excuse me' hahaha.
anyway on a happier mood, i won toto. 4 number the same. so happy. although only 30 bucks, it's better than nothing. lol.
nothing much to update on.
bye.
12:54 PM
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
merry christmas!!!
went to his hse to stay on monday. actually wanted to go out at night one, but then due to the increase in cab fare plus his friend is flying to vietnam the next day, we decided to stay at home. after watching tv, we headed to bed.
the next day, started watching the dvds: SCREAM, vacancy, the 19th gate of hell.
after watching we went to jurong point. bought quite a no. of things.
-suisse makeup remover
-4 nail arts
-angel fit foundation refill
-masks
-fragrance for the room
-snacks
-food
big big damage to the pocket. heart so pain....
alright, i guess im ending here. goodbye all.
bon voyage to my friends who are going to kukup tomorrow. =)
11:32 PM
Sunday, December 23, 2007
i just asked my bf's bro's gf abt the ACCA cost. the max amt she gave was each subject will be less than 1000, more than 600. so it means that if i were to fail any paper, it means 1000 bucks GONE. FLY AWAY....every lesson conducted will be 3.5 hrs. one lesson one day/week. got finance management, accounting, taxation etc.
am i really suppose to spend my parent's hard-earned money?
if they are able to afford, why not? but the prob is, it's their hard earn money once again. they can use this money to do a lot of things.
most importantly, is this the path i really wan? as in accounting line? if not accounting, what can i still do?
at this stage if im still confuse, i can must well go and die. hahaha.
time to sleep. yet im feeling so hungry.
anyone willing to hire me from feb to june?
good pay??? hahaha
bye.
12:17 AM
Saturday, December 22, 2007
i went to m'sia ytd with my dad to bring my cousin to singapore. the weather was terrbily HOT. we came back in the afternoon. bought some biscuits there.
sometimes i got no choice but to comment that my mum is very selfish. very very. even my father also cannot stand her attitude and character.
anyway i won 2 star cruise ticket and i have to collect it next week at tampines courts. so happy. but then my parents wanted to go, so no chance for me. haix. but hello, the ticket under my name lehx. hahaha.
didnt really sleep well last night. bad dreams and also my cousin sleeping above me keeps waking up. (double decker bed).
just came back from loyang. went out with my bro and his friend. and when me and his friend together with my cousin went down for lunch while my bro is parking the car, my bro happily sms me telling me: 'wah, like couple lidat, both wear green' and i told him WTF. hahaha.
chatted awhile with his friend. until my bro came. so awkward la.
after lunch my bro sent him home.
now im so tired. yawn!!!
3:19 PM
Thursday, December 20, 2007
when i say things is not doing fine, it really isn't going fine. why wouldnt i let u hug me, kiss me. because i felt sth wrong with this relationship.
keeping it to myself, not telling u anything yet hinting u all the time.
how many times did u scold me today?
right in the morning before u even took a bath, after our breakfast, when we join ur mum n sis at giant, and when we were on our way to jurong point. everything was my fault okay. maybe if im willing to leave u once and for all, u wouldnt feel so miserable.
at night, for no reason u vent ur anger on me AGAIN. you left me deep in thoughts on whether i should continue this stupid relationship. i've thrown enough face together with u already. it's only when u admit that sth is wrong with us.
u claim there's generation gap between us. but how far can our age gap be? 30 years apart? mr, it's only 3 years. you want to give up this relationship, just go straight to the point.
since he said such thing, im not going to care abt this r/s. i'll seldom go over too. because im really really tired.
sometimes i wonder, why am i always the one getting scolded for nothing.
i dun wan to continue my studies anymore. earn my own money, spend my own money, rent my own house, and dun need to see anyone's face.
this is my life.
9:15 PM
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
with the sudden increase in cab fares, it's really a big damage to the pocket. my bf while sending me home must be cursing that i get home ASAP so he can save that seconds without me. definately. he happily hailed a mercedes taxi and then the very stingy me started screaming and yelling at him: 'wah why u hail merc. expensive lehx'. hahaha. but i was considered lucky because for merc the price haven increase. see properly then hail la.
i met up with vietnam. and she passed me the coffee she bought over at her hometown. we went to bbdc to enrol for our driving. wah, panic panic. hahaha. after that headed to westmall to shop yi xia zhi. damages done.
enrolment plus basic theory etc...$150
blusher $16.90 from face shop
eye remover $11.95 from watson
nail polish $2.90 from face shop.
when i reached pioneer mall, i still need people to shelter me over. the rain was too heavy until i was half drenched when i manage to cross the road. hahaha. with the slippery heels. can u imagine u r stepping on the floor instead.
i feel so tired.
i need to sleep.
11:41 PM
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
i feel so bored. so bored until i started playing fluff(race) in facebook. still kinda new to me because at first i dunno how to play it. haha. stop laughing at me. im born SLOW. hahaha.
staying at home alone can make me grown into a pig. 10am- breakfast, 1pm- lunch, 5pm- dinner, 9pm- snack, 11.30-12am- wanna sleep. fan-tas-tic isnt it.
thought staying at home equals to no stress nothing, but why got pimple growing neh~ haix.
that vietnam girl finally arrives to singapore liao. she runaway from home on friday. not even bothering to attend school and now she's back because her mummy n daddy put up a lot of notices in search for her and i got myself a $10,000 rewards for locating her back to singapore. jealous of that 10,000? it's in rupiah for god-sake. i got cheated!!!
i did pedicure. BY MYSELF. i simply love my toe now. with those shiny shiny stuff. i hope it last because i got no experience in nail paintings let alone putting on stickers on my cute lil toe. hahaha. im too poor to visit nail studio etc...so do myself. hahaha. SATISFIED.
i wish the rain will stop, the memories will fade.
6:07 PM
Monday, December 17, 2007
why does it still hurt after so long.
because deep in my heart there's a shadow behind it? or was it because im really too narrow-minded and selfish?
c'mon, which girls arent selfish?
i've tried to change, i cant and i will not. because i know im who i am. i cant change because u dun like the way i behave, i cant change because u dun like the way i talk. i am who i am. i wun change. i can change my temper, but not my character.
i've since given in a lot by changing my temper. i really dunno what u want. dun try to be sarcastic to me. just because of a minor issue, u screwed the whole relationship. i can rmb ur words very vividly.
they say one would never learn how to cherish another until they loses them. does it mean u have to lose me completely before u know how to cherish?
i dun wan to know. that's not call love, it's call PITY.
tired.
and now very pek chek with IAP. because need to dunno change what do. den dunno what la. can go siao.
11:35 PM
there's many reason why i hate staying at home. seriously, i prefer school.
i feel like going out. i hate staying at home.
why is this world so unfair. fucking ppl gets to strike toto. 89++ k. those good ppl dun get all these shit. argh!!! hahaha.
when can my boyfriend be rich? i want to get married! i want a house of my own. y his bro, not him. life is really so unfair???
i know this blog is getting boring. i cant help it either because im really bored!
ytd went out with bro and mum in search of a new washing machine to be delivered on tuesday. bought it at courts. this time round we decided to pay deposit instead of the always paying everything. because when u pay everything, the thing u bought is always of a bad quality. after that headed to banquet for lunch. already so full, but still eat. just guess my weight.
and right now, im still pondering what i want after poly life. continue studying or work. seriously no studies means no work. but then i dun wan to survive with only a few thousands because is seriously cant survive one. like ur allowance for 1 month can hardly cover the cost spent on food outside. sad right! this has become of s'pore living standard.
although my parents already set aside a certain amt for my studies, but i really dunno what i want. i scared i'll spend their hard-earn money on something i dun like.
so sian! i think i gotta start on IAP. IAP IAP IAP can siao u know. i hate it. hate everything.
narrow-minded.
8:44 AM
Saturday, December 15, 2007
went out with my parents early in the morning, and back home at around 3pm. to paya lebar then to potong pasir and den to dad's friend house.
took an hour's nap and den went to meet my boyfriend. had macdonald for my dinner. i think im too obsessed with fried food and oily stuff. i need to change my eating habits orelse soon, everyone will see a 55kg LAU HUI LI. hahahaha.
went to pioneer mall to chit chat with J'DAB shervonne, okay from now on i shall mention her name so wun always say pioneer mall x 2. hahaha. and den they were saying abt my weight. asking me how heavy am i? one say 43, I say 44-45. den they say i bluff them about my weight. but the fact is, im stating the fact. i dun like it when i say my weight and then they dun believe. i dun gain anything for lying abt my weight, do i? so no point lying. but anyway they are really a bunch of good listener. everytime whenever im not feeling so happy, i will go over and then chit chat until happy. lol.
when my bf was sending me home, i saw a few malays in the lift. one girl was smoking in the lift. PLEASE BE MORE CONSIDERATE. im a non-smoker, i dun like taking in 2nd hand smoke. morever it's a lift. SMOKING STRICTLY PROHIBITED. dun u understand english? and they were so yaya-papa-ya, still say, 'smoking allowed in the lift' what the fuck. (i didnt confront them, they were just trying to make themselve feel so RIGHT)
i dun tink i can sleep.
tt's all~
10:36 PM
Thursday, December 13, 2007
on the outside, it may sound like he care alot about me, buy whatever stuff i want, but deep down i know there's many things hidden.
first of all, he's tired of being with me
den he's not happy with me
den he says i spoil the relationship
den he says i sucks big time.
and now i say 'goodbye'.
i've mentioned before, i can never stand having a boyfriend who drinks and flirt ard with girls. enough is enough.
my dad asked u to quote a price for the repairing of car damaged by our fucking cheebye neighbour. what have you done? nth was fax over, no phone calls abt it. you dun wan to help just say u dun wan, dun always give the excuses of not free, no time, cnt quote.
i seriously dun wan my car to be repaired there, but then my dad just wanna know the cost of repair. fuck.
i cannot stand such neighbour such boyfriend. i really really want to come out of this relationship. i wanted to go to the christmas party, yet because u dun allow, i gave it a miss. i wanted to go kukup, yet u dun allow, and den i gave it a miss. but u nv see how i sacrifice. all u see is ur own sacrifice, not mine.
since u have already mention that u are tired in this relationship, den sorry goodbye.
thanks for that fucking 600 plus earring, 300 plus necklace, everything adds up to more than a thousand dollars but because u wanted face, so dun need to return right?
got this kind of friend will produce this kind of fucker.
like terrence like andy.
hahaha~
ytd after achivers, boarded the bus home. it broke down halfway and den cannot start the engine liao. hahaha. den the next bus came, i boarded that bus and this fucker, so pervert one. use his cock to make my hand when i keep my ez-link card at my back pocket. he stood so close to me till i really feel like slapping him. i dun understand why there are such pervert in this world.
he squeeze and squeeze and den i escape and escape. hahaha.
today's AFA was a gone-case. because of theory which makes me feel so scared. end up whatever impt thing i studied was not tested but defination. sometimes should believe caleb lye's word but then who will believe that AFA theory will include defination. ridiculous la.
after the paper headed home. had a very unhappy dinner because there's too much rice, too much fish, too much vege. tt's the reason why i dun wan to dine at home after paper. rather sit down with family for dinner together.
having an early night. way too tired.
shall end here. bb.
9:58 PM
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
RESPECT!
damn the fortune teller. we were gathering ard chun yuan listening to his story. and den the fortune teller interrupted and gave us a brief telling session. im in a love triangle.-> he said. and so this left me pondering from where will the triangle form.
the four of us, being unprepared was kinda blur when he started looking at our palms and telling us. seriously, im not very happy. i never wanna know my future. never wanna know where my relationship lies. and now, with his words, it has affected me. making me wanna go in-depth into the whole story. to believe or not is yet another story. but normally ppl will say 50-50. but how u actually take the whole thing will depends. really depends.
i cannot say i wun believe what he says. because from previous case, it's shown tt im caught between a love triangle. but now that ive decided to turn over a new leaf, i dunno where the triangle will grow from. confuse, unhappy, fucked-up.
thurs will be AFA CA2. as usual quite scared. but this time im really very scared. because there isnt much time for preparation. too many theory. one sec go in, another sec go out.
i cant wait for holidays.
congrats to our yvonne lee yen ting, who has successfully made full use of 9/12/2007. (midnight) HAHAHA! this is funny. ~die lo~
i seriously hate my neighbours staying at the 11th storey. my dad is very angry with them too. just now when my dad was preparing to drive my sis n bro back from tuition, they threw a stone or dunno what shit down and it hitted our car. last night as i was studying for AFA, they were playing at the stairs outside my house. initially i thought i would end after a while since it's already 11.30 pm. but then they just cant stop running and screaming and i got so angry tt i un-locked the door and scolded them. and den abnn very clever, say sorry lo. and den un-finished cake and tissue paper were thrown down by them previously as they were celebrating birthday. during durian festival, they will buy and eat and very swiftly, throw it down the stairs. why they dun throw money ar?
no this cant go on. it's either my neighbours complain or ME going down to complain. no more knocking on the doors. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. and now my dad wants compensation for the damaged done to the car. soon they will say goodbye to the roti prata shop. hahahaha~
alright tt's the end.
11:10 PM
i feel very tired.
12:37 AM
Sunday, December 09, 2007
alright, ive posted my blog url in my friendster.
to those who are reading, i hope u wun go ard giving ppl my blog url. which i know there's one who will do so. please for god sake, dun ever tell him.
i seriously dunno y u r so curious over my issue. maybe because he ask u to ask or what. i yearn for privacy.
the end~
12:17 PM
i should be sleeping at this time. but i chance upon a dragon-boater's blog, reuben kee. i read. and read and read.
it was such a pity. why do they have to struggle at their very last breathe? why must god take them away. the glory of singapore.
sometimes i do hope there's sth which can bring back time. but if it really exist den i guess everyone will still be very young right now.
i still feel the pain even though it's been a few weeks. no, 2 weeks the most.
i guess it's time i head for bed. why bother abt it since it's already been a past?
i just hope they will R.I.P
cherish life~
12:23 AM
Saturday, December 08, 2007
sometimes shouldnt be too protective. protected by parents, by boyfriends and now by my brother. when can i have freedom?
there was once im talking to benson in msn. because my brother knew him thru camp, tt's y.
my bro sort of question him why he add me in msn and why he chat with me. and then he told benson, 'i dun like you to talk to my sis'
wah. lidat also can.
nth to say. seriously.
was chatting abt kelvin on msn with szeling until she bth. hahaha. lol.
2:03 PM
Friday, December 07, 2007
ok. first of all, i must thanks my friends. like yvonne, szeling, kelly, ching, edmond, weijian, shijie and crystal. hahahaha. anw the photoframe was superb. it consist of my darlings inside and my yandao.
they sang zhu wo sheng ri kuai le. so touched that i cry. hahaha. seriously too surprised liao. after they sang outside the lec hall, i headed to meet my boyfriend. (1/2 day leave, his supervisor give him off) at least still got the heart. boo.
oh ya~ thanks von von for the cake. i finished it liao.
had mac for lunch. and den watch the host. after that slept for awhile.
woke up by a phone call from his friend. den after that headed to jurong point...
interesting story ahead...
we went to goldheart. with my birthday voucher from goldheart. with my VIP/member card. and den he ask me to chose a pair of earrings. price too steep. i dunno how to chose. den anyhow anyhow chose. hahaha....a bomb for him seriously.
but he say nvm. birthday present is okay. told my mum abt the price she also got a fright. hahaha.
hee. i love shiny shiny earrings.
dine at fish & co.
after tt headed to his hse again. slack awhile le den come home cut cake.
bro giving me $50. because he tell me he dunno what to buy for me. like i got everything liao. because whatever things i like, i will try to get it. hahaha. this is what my bro says. peng~
got another 50 bucks also not bad. heex.
ok, another 35 mins will be the end of my birthday.
11:10 PM
Thursday, December 06, 2007
i just went to his friendster profile. and i just realise sth. he broke off with his taiwan's gf and got together with another girl he met during his friend wedding. like can someone tell me, WHAT THE FUCK.
a leopard will nv change its spot.
after much serious thought, i finally realise sth. i will never want my guy to be so flirt. whether in the past or what. therefore for terrence's case, i guess there's nth much to regret. in fact i should feel happy. because he's not the one i love anymore. so freaking flirt. one day there'll be karma.
i know that for my case, i'll still get karma. but i guess he's will be far worse. he broke up ppl's relationship. what kind of fucker can he be. hahahaha~
no lose no gain.
i love my life as it is now.
9:37 PM
i just sent my necklace for repair. and i was late for school. hahaha. need to spend $10 for the repairing. was considered okay le la. because SK also $10. hahaha.
i got discount for goldheart jewellery. less 150 bucks. because this month is my birthday.
so good being a goldheart member.
bought a birthday cake for myself. my mother pay. hahaha. im guessing what my bro buy for me. hmmm....hahahaha~
shall update tonight if there's anything.
2:05 PM
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
very very tired. who can actually feel such pain? who will know such pain? have a boyfriend like dun have boyfriend lidat.
we quarrel over his fucking friend terrence loo. he says his friend is more impt to him. whenever he's in trouble, this friend is always there for him. so that it mean im never there for him? im not going to care anymore. since whatever ive done is never recognise.
i asked him a very basic qns during dinner.
'are you working on friday?'
'of course la, why never work? you also never ask me to take leave'
'oh, ok.'
if everything have to be planned by me, den what's the point of being together?
my mother more power!
'eh, you go and order 1 cake for yourself can? i not free to go. '
'no heart one. aiya dun need to celebrate la. im just a nobody.'
my brother
'what present do you want for ur birthday?'
'anything la. buy what also can'
so everyone can jolly well guess who's the one who dotes on me the most. not my boyfriend, not my mother but my brother. yes only at this age den i realise my bro loves me alot. it's never too late ok.
i broke the necklace he bought for me during valentine. he said, the breaking of the necklace will means the end of this relationship.
HE SAID. so im taking it to heart.
he's always the one scolding me over the phone, always the one starting the quarrel but im always the one he blames and says that i start the quarrel.
since he thinks that terrence is such a good friend of his, den just dun bother me. if ur friend ever chance apon my blog, i want you to tell him that i've been in a relationship with his so-call best friend. best budd. the best in the world. the one he wun throw his temper on. okay? me as his fuck off girlfriend is jus a piece of shit. a person who dun care for him, a person who's never there for him. a person who sucks. ok?
anyway thanks collen for your early birthday gift. i love u loads too~
sometimes it's meant to let go.
10:28 PM
Saturday, December 01, 2007
i missed my period. dunno what's happening...argh!! i hate it when my breast are sore and it hurts big time....
unwell.
unhappy.
tired.
10:04 PM
